[see note at bott9m re typos] it's an indissoluble bond. my new lamp, inbelnownst to me when i ordered it, is called "Torchiere Mother and Son." It just made the whole thing perfect. As this nev situation started out with a project to retroactively heal everything pertaining to my son's 's life from conception to … Continue reading mother & son
Specialness
when I lived here in the 80's (I identified as Berks County), there were 4 diagnoses: major depression, manic depression, schizophrenia, and borderline personality disorder. I always remember that poor fellow with horrible OCD being thrown out of the partial program that I was attending. Since then, things have changed. But those memories are indelible. … Continue reading Specialness
Alien 5000 is here.
a little ways away. when it gets this bad, God steps in we are supposed to be his hands and feet. HE is His mighty wrath.
all choked up
I have adopted him but found out this morning that not only is he an unaltered male and scenting g things but he also he is sick. He is very thin and had liquid diarrhea this morning. I put him out after that until I could figure out what to do. he is a sweet … Continue reading all choked up
the Claw
I also remember feeling like I was being dragged down the halls and I was choking on something, trying to say get this out of my mouth, I cant breathe. It was on the Pagoda Unit, after the Claw thing. I am hearing from my sources that all of this was in my mother's will. … Continue reading the Claw
…a tender romantic love story
this was first published in 2021 before I went to the hospital, it has been altered. the IT BIT BYTE marriage about a tricky clit do it in technicolor make it for the kids I got kneed in the crotch, it was like someone bit my clit off. it paved the way for an immaculate … Continue reading …a tender romantic love story
***Pro-Life Mailing***
lulu.com California, a Pro-Life Novel with Jesus Loves Unborn Children, a Pro-Life Blog was mailed to top 10 pro-choice organizations in America. Buy it at the lulu.com online bookstore above. Here is the letter and a list of the recipients. Letter Abbyhillonline P.O.Box 97 Trexlertown, PA 18087 September 30, 2018 … Continue reading ***Pro-Life Mailing***
about Arab terrorists
there is the one I call “snowflake”—the original—the worst. because of how cold they are—how clean, how perfect, how enticing to an impressionable mind who has had enough of the sinful nature in American society. There are three religions who go to Yahweh: Jews, Muslims, and Christians; and Christians will always win in the end … Continue reading about Arab terrorists
About Dad
in other words, words, Dad, Alex. he was so insecure about my male College associations. he was so way high above them as a husband and friend to me and Ian. as a Canadian he had the habits of an armchair intellectual. he had his flaws. But he had a few years on them. He … Continue reading About Dad
About Dom
This young black woman on a psych ward in Reading a year ago was bullying me. This is rife on psych wards. Young black woman will pick a fight with a white woman and even strike them and then accuse them of hate speech and try to have them arrested. It is not only legal but … Continue reading About Dom
AFA
My son went to a boarding school in Florida a half-hour from our home. He came home on weekends. Sometimes he didn't want to go back. The kids fought. After five years he had to leave because of the eye injury. They just couldn't hold him after that. I didn't realize it about that school until just now. I thought … Continue reading AFA
Silly Rain Man
Silly wart-mole person. that was a cover. I was a serious autist. I played the piano. Like my father. Took lessons. From the dentist's son. He graduated fron Juliard. I started horse-back riding at age 10. I loved it at first. But then I got my own horse. That was hard. I was good on rhe flat, but not over fences. Broken … Continue reading Silly Rain Man
Obama
I raised my son to be a completely non-racist person. He had a little black kid as a friend at age 2. That kid's mother, Brenda, was his real mother when I couldn't be. After Hopkins. She gave him Jesus. Then, we had to move to Florida. Shit happened. I started writing about abortion. Then, Obama was up … Continue reading Obama
ignorance
I was so ignorant about Black culture in Florida. I thought I struck a good note in race wars in Germantown, MD in the 90's. But couldn't get it confirmed or denied. I took it to Florida and was not received for it there. I just didn't understand. I thought that the race situation was more advanced because of … Continue reading ignorance
Arthur Robyn
I just chose that name for the child I lost at 13. About abbyhillonline. Jasmine and Ian--the two atonement children--were the force behind abbyhillonline. I am finally retiring from this work. Jasmine has been going out of my body for the last 3 or 4 days. Ian was trapped in there too. I was dedicated to being Ian's … Continue reading Arthur Robyn
I didn’t know
I learned last night that a child died of the illness that was going around because of my spitting in the trash on the porch where people smoked. At the Spring domestic violence shelter in Tampa, Florida. This has followed me all my life and I didn't know it. I was so upset to hear this. I … Continue reading I didn’t know
seizure disorder
I have finally figured out my character and what upsets people so much about me. I am a person who suffered from a seizure disorder all her life and nobody knew it. I covered it over as a child through constant reading. At Kent School I felt constantly, physically stressed in a way that I … Continue reading seizure disorder
Un.Bon.Mot 