Danger

I’ve been ill.

my legs were shaking so badly that I could barely walk, and my insides were all squishy and it hurt to bend over.

I was terrified that it would only get worse and that I wouldn’t be able to drive.

now, I am on the mend in the most mysterious way,.

turns out there was a blockage in my bowels.

I will only go into one part of the gory details:

I had one episode of liquid diarrhea in which there was a long thin stick- like piece of crud. I knew after that that I would be on the mend and that is finally happening. I commented to my father yesterday that my legs felt GOOD.

the day before yesterday (?) The Lord led me to turn my attention to this issue of constipation/incontinence and I did so and now I am nursing my self and getting all better I can walk fine and my bowels are still a little bit rank and there are some problems there but no pain.

but the weirdest thing is how it is the echo of the wart-mole-pressing on the nerve next to my nose, which is beginning to heal over mentally, physically, experiential, etc cetera. That blockage in my bowels was a gastrointestinal echo of this whole situation, Obviously the blockage was pressing on some critical nerves in my insides. Following the Lord’s instructions, I used Senekot AND Colace AND a suppository AND 2 warmed cans of prune juice. And I didn’t even get diarrhea.

as soon as it all passed, I felt sore inside, but I felt instant relief.

as I said, I will cut that short and go on to the rest of this drama.

I was called last night in this weakened condition to pull a vigil. For the cats. It was HARD to do this.

I knew that they were sick from the wet cat litter–my father didn’t know–while I was gone–that he was to remove the urine- soaked litter as well as the bms; and now I’m struggling to get back up to speed with the old routine. Also, I’m unprepared for this heat. They got locked out the other day at midday and I had completely spaced out on it. I th I nk they got heat stroke, I sorta knew but sorta didn’t. I m ostly I eat them inside.

so I know that I need to share my caring with them now. Last night I was scared for them and something told me to stay up and I did. I sensed at a certain point that the danger had passed and finally went to bed; somehow woke up to feed them at 7 am and then went back to sleep until noon.