the Claw

I also remember feeling like I was being dragged down the halls and I was choking on something, trying to say get this out of my mouth, I cant breathe. It was on the Pagoda Unit, after the Claw thing.

I am hearing from my sources that all of this was in my mother’s will.

I realize that I was also being orally raped.

I also figured that the thing about the thin, stick- like thing that I eliminated the other night with the help of God was exactly that. I thought, how could that be introduced into my bowels? (I was thinking orally, of course.) Well, obviously it was introduced anally. Just in case I didn’t die right away in the woods. To give me more pain. They couldn’t rape me frontally because there is nothing left of my vagina. So they raped me anally and orally and dragged me up and down the halls, put a stick up my ass just plain to hurt me; am I missing anything…then somehow or another I wound up on a slope in some nearby woods alone–oh, yeah, and they pissed on me.

in the woods I was comparaticely safe.

I stayed alive, and someone found me. I don’t remember being found but back on the Tower Unit (instead of the Pagoda Unit where I started out) I had in the back of my mind being in the woods for 5 days and then I got the call from Harrisburg about being at St. Jo’s ER in December when I supposedly should have been on the psych ward and I started trying to put things back together, which I’m still trying to do.