I finally looked up the word and found out what it meant. It kept coming to me at the end of my stay on the Tower Unit. The synonyms are auger, diviner, medium, clairvoyant, Saint, Prophet. I was calling myself a seer–like Jacinta. I don’t know much about her, especially, I didn’t realize she was a child.
I thinķ that was after I told group that I was an alien.
They wouldn’t let me take it back.
it didn’t go very far. I was stripped of all this at the hospital when I wenlt to the new psych hospital in Lebanon.
I was too far from home and way too far beyond my strength to cope with being on a psych ward
in Reading, the talk of aliens did me in; and in Lebanon it was being deprived of light. The roommate walked in, turned out the lights without asking, and went to bed, in the middle of the afternoon. Toward the end of my stay they dimmed the lights in the “milieu” area and then there was no place to go. I stepped outside 3 tines for about 15 minutes each time. Otherwise, I had no fresh air or exercise and no sunshine. I just didn’t find out that I had attained the level to go out for walks, nobody told me.
they stressed me to the max. I mentioned the rack, to someone in the milieu, a medieval method of torture.
I felt like that was what was happening to me.
still there is a pot of gold here
(the one I saw at Horsham in Ambler before I ever went to Philhaven.)
At the hospital in Reading, “The Tower Unit,” and at many times before that, I was trying to figure out what kind of being I was, to have had the kind of history I have had, culminating in two (2) ALIEN encounters, the one before I left here, and the one after the 5 days in the woods ( the “slope epiphany.”)
just an ordinary human being, I guess.
I always drew strength from the Biblical story of Job.
But, it was getting a little late for that.
But now I am growing deeper in the Christian faith through all this. I am deeper into the faith and I see reasons for things that I never seen before, i hsve the sure presence of the LORD, both as the staff that comforts and the rod that corrects.
well the simple definition of soothsayer is someone who sees into the future. I thought it meant “truth teller.” But I do see that there is a future in the present in the weirdest way, especially in this pandemic. So I’ll grab both titles, soothsayer and truth teller. Because I did. I tell the truth to the best of my abilities at all times.
Maybe I didnt before, wasn’t able. But now I do.
Un.Bon.Mot 