Goodness in the Act Team

How on earth would I ever have gotten through the last 4 (?) weeks without them?

Yes I was very scared leaving my life in the hands of complete strangers.

But there is a miraculous change here, the wart/mole change. People don’t just walk away any more and they dont ud3avtgody I dy ever did. It csn be otobl e matuc.

have any idea that anybody ever did. It can be problematic.

I put myself in a change mode Jan 1 2020 and God took me very seriously. It was AFTER that that I finally opted for the surgery to remove the mole and it came at the same time as the psychiatrist refused to provide medication twice. Each time I wound up in the hospital.

so, this comes in the context of my mother and brother’s recent deaths (2020 and 2018) and everything is up in the air. Now that the grieving is done, times are ripe for change.

thngs are coming out in the wash.

I get a little paranoid about the ACT Team for the reasons I have stated. There is noone to speak for me. Noone in my family (even my son) can really speak to my issues as a psych patient. I JUST CANNOT TAKE IN any more &***><#=$658$754$<5÷54÷54>_/$”8/65>=”>/

that’s how a psych ward feels to me.

triggers thick as fleas on a cat.

or, Daniel in the Lions Den.

too much for too long.

the point is, I WANT to work with the ACT Team.

I NEED to stay out of the hospital.

but, there are 2 problems.

my father cannot be deemed competent to act on my behalf. He has ulterior motives. He has gotten so old that he just doesn’t remember. This is part of the Hopkins lawsuit.

I am the ONLY PERSON who has an accurate record of 39 years of treatment within the system for addressing the needs of the unstable and mentally unwell in our society and I have so been there but I am good now, I want to stay out.

I took what I needed from the past year in the hospital. I was finally able to.

I see that it was like the DEEP CLEANING that the cleaning service did here last week. There’s more to do but we’re out of the danger zone.

I have plans, projects, a positive outlook, I’m loving it here.

obviously it can’t be happening without the continuing support of the ACT Team and Dr. KHO. I will continue to be fragile for a while but it would be best to solve this by staying in this familiar and beloved setting. It is my favorite project to continue to redecorate. I am prayng that my father is willing to accommodate this plan. I do have other irons in the fire in case he is not but it would take time.