ALIEN5

Both alien4 and alien5 are male.

alien4 is my level; my father needs alien5.

I am inclined to deem him senile. But I know that that is not it.

he just needs to abandon the policy of getting rid of Lynne.

I lived with that for a large part of my life–my adult, married, and divorced life. And at the same time they were using me for everything I had. Now all of a sudden I am alive as a human being and as a person the first time in my life.

Im not concerned with the past except as it influences the present

The nasty ugly sick mole/wart simplex has come off and I want to LIVE. I can communicate, I can talk, I can think. It’s a brand new world. I probably needed to be in the hospital just as I was for healing and cleansing after 40 years in the MH System and what led me to knock on their door.

suffice it to say that not everybody on the psych ward is truly there for a psych reason and that that has caused a mighty snarl of misnderstandings here that probably can’t all be sorted out now. Startng with the paper trail, which goes back to my deep closets in NJ which had a lot of scary stuff in them. Thats where I “stuffed” things. and how everythng in them got tossed ? Who knows? either when my sister moved into my room or when they moved to another town when I was at boarding school.

I guess it is a case of cutting my losses.

it is said, “Of him to whom much is given, much is expected.”

I guess that that was what my high school was about but i was not well enough to measure up.

Radcliffe was easier BECAUSE THEY SPOKE MY LANGUAGE.

which at that time was interational English.

I read the NIV Bible. (New International Version).

Now I am a hodgepodge from being FORCED to fit in in so many places alien to me on a local level because I needed psych meds.

pretty soon I’m going to be a breakaway.