once is cool, twice is queer

at Haven I was already talking about and beginning to draw about aliens. So that doesn’t all belong to Philhaven. I was also trying to safely talk to my sister.

at Haven, just before I left, they grabbed my gold folder that had items of critical worth that I thought I needed to verify my stay there and what happened to me.

I didn’t. I no longer have problems with object constancy, which my mother used to play on to keep me helpless and I was also in pain.

I have other validation of what happened at the Pagoda Unit and afterwards in myself and with others.

I always remembered riding up to the Pagoda in Reading with my dear fried Martin, on the back of his moyorcycle, on a warm summer night, back in the 80’s.

so, at Haven they took the gold notebook that had the piece of paper that i scrawled down a number on when someone called from Harrisburg when I was still a patient. They told me I had been admitted to st Jo’s ER on December 19, when I was supposed to be a patient on the psych unit. I already knew in the back of my head, I kept saying to myself “5 days in the woods” in the back of my mind, Not knowing what was going to happen.

I had entered the hospital on about Nov 8 of last year. And I didn’t get out until a few months ago. I can’t find the paperwork to know the exact date.

but that was my 2nd hospitalization within a year as I had been at the Horsham Clinic at the beginning of 2021 for the same reason, the doctors on the outside refused to provide my Clozaril. That makes it twice that someone did this to me.

“once is cool twice is queer,”

oh, I almost forgot, I have some “pre-drawings” here that I meant to post. At Haven they gave back the gour blue folders. Not the gold one.

I d9nt know what thisvis about myself except that I was talking a lot about playing with bubbles in the tar in the street in th e summert8n. And how my mother knew to use melted butter to get it off.

and how it was like that in New Probidence back then when everybody worked for AT&T Research Division now Lucent (or something else?) The kids were involved in the parents work. I wondered talk of the tar bubbles had any relation to Mr. W’s magnetic bubbles work that was his life work.

so, it’s been a long time since the AT&T break-up. Can we finally talk?