well now that I have settled the sexual abuse issue–it did happen–I was caught up in the worst season for sexual abuse claims, the early 80’s, it was a craze and still is. I just wanted to know exactly what happened and maybe I don’t know all of it but I know two key parts and I’m comfortable that anything else will come out in the wash.
so, MOVING ON.
this is my condition or rather, these are my conditions, insofar as I know them.
Atrophy
Severe Arthritis all over.
sone other orthopedic conditions
low thyroid
high bp
COPD
pre-diabetic
PSYCH:
organic personality disorder– the lesion on my face was the sign of it.
PTSD of the psych ward. I simply cannot be treated on a psych ward ever again. It makes me sick, so they hold me longer, so I get sicker: it’s a vicious cycle.
Anxiety and lifetime Major Depression. I must always be on an antidepressant. The one I’m on right now, the Cymbalta, is good. The Abilify is a massive help to my depression.
The hydroxyzine (Visturel?) and Klonopin are good choices for myself for anxiety,
benadryl: bad
benzos other than Klonopin: very bad
OCD is resolving after 35 years of being helpless.
my biggest probllem at the outset was impulsivity as evidenced by chain-smoking 3 packs a day as soon as I got out of boarding high school. Uncontrollably. I hit that note over and over in my life. With the wart-mole lesion OFF my face it I s naturally reducing.
congenital deficiency: from my mother’s side of the family. As evidenced by inappropriate laughter and verbal incontinence. And I don’t cry at all.
this is for the new doctor to see before I meet with her tomorrow.
Un.Bon.Mot 