from a week ago
I have to add the 15 years total breakdown from 2003 to 2018 over sick constipation. A doctor in Allentown had the answer in 2018: Miralax. It worked once and then it kept on working.
Before going to the hospital this time last year, it stopped working and i was horribly worried.
now my bowels are completely fd up. But not as badly as when i was in Florida. Praying over this.
Then, there is the heart of the illness, which is neurological and i have an appointment shortly with an excellent meurologist in Allentown, a pillar of the community. I am praying that he takes my case ome apptopriately. P I a, oto happen iappropriately.
First, because of hostility on the psych ward that had me very confused i somehow spent all my time pulling my mind, thoughts and ideas apart trying to figure out what had happened and all that i could come up with was that there was somethng going on with the cats. I supposed the existence of a cat-God, to explain what was happening, and it was a little comforting. I have told this story so many times. Just let me leave it that two years after leaving Wernersville for good i met a Scottish man of Clan Chattan– the clan of the cat. Still working that one out.
I was an experimental Tegretol patient also taking Haldol and it was a horrible time. The doctor didn’t supervise the medicatin well. And frightening things started to happen. It was similar to when I left Boston: i was experiencing something weird with the medication that was unbearable, frightening, and horrible that I couldnt verbalize. This Is it this Is here, I am screaming for help. Ive been in a bottle for 34 years, unable to connect. This craziness is all over the Tampa Bay are making people sick still.
I called it OCD and so did the psychologist in San diego County in ’93. Nut itnr4ally isn’t. The terror and pain are hard to express. A t a vulnerable moment anybody could board an d take me over I was constantly consumed with little things that hadn’t gone right l8ke the shower turn8ng cold the firrtvn8ght At thr housev8n Perr I s.
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This isp vwhatHopkins DIDNT HANDLE. At all. Lipsey BLAMED ME FOR IT. And so did my father.
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I can’t do any more than this tonight. I am going to put it out now as is, I just heard alien music so so so beautiful. Maybe you wIll hear it too soft
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