[see note at bott9m re typos]
it’s an indissoluble bond.
my new lamp, inbelnownst to me when i ordered it, is called “Torchiere Mother and Son.” It just made the whole thing perfect. As this nev situation started out with a project to retroactively heal everything pertaining to my son’s ‘s life from conception to the present, MOST 8MPORTANTLY, the events surrounding his actual childbirth.
when these d8stress8ng recent events took 0lace I was 8n a place where 8 had to face 5hat a w9man can die in childbir5h. It’vof my life.s not l8ke sipp8ng cappu c ionand enjoy8mg a v igarette.
and 8n the c9ntext of other th8ngs go I ng on 8n my life I had to recomm8t myself to the cours4c9f earl6vmother I ood.
it wasvs9 c9m0k4x and profo7nd that I couldn’t put it 9ut he5e except insofarcas it mak4s sense if the ev4nts s8nce that t8me whi v hmARE known.
I was 8nte5polati9n a surr9gate mo t her as I was t99 weak t or the moments of the ac5ual del7very. More rec4nly imthought, how silly. I c9uld have had a ca4sa5ian secti9n.
b7t I had left 8tor5 of a mysretrr6 othe5 than tha5 Ian had t9 go 8nto s9me9ne els4s a rms and I could die over 5h8s and I almost d8d. Haywna becsme 5he surrogatecmother. I owe he4v5he debt of my life. Because she d8r everyth8ng my s9n ne4d4d her to do. Now 5h3 flo7ds of MUD 5hat w
rr preva8l I ng are part8ng and I am 7nde4stand8ng my own l8fe. What a kind, courageous, andngen4ro7s young wman!
So, her4 8 wm back fr9m the hpital and I am com8ng back to l8fe. So Ian has d9ne WELL and is now helping me. I’ve been pretty sick but there’s a turnaround here for ME: I’ve pull3d 5hro7th and t9ge5he5 all 5he many partscand ev4nts 8f my life, ESP4C8ALLY thi a ecthat were ch9k8ng me and dragg8ng me down. It 2as all built 8nto th8s cottage 8n a 3ayvi d9nt want tovexpka8 but 5ha5 night a y4ar ag9 3h4n I ripp3d h8ngs apart 8nvher4 ther4 wascsvreae9b for it.
it has be4n b597ght out of the 18th century. But, I 3as d3st8n3d to live here and my mo5he4 wouldn’t let me.
so, I am pret56 m8nch d9ne Wi6h what I am go8ng to do 8n here; j7s5 wait8ng 9n re56rn of por5abl4 rishwasherv8bs5alke5svwnd del 9n my father call7bg an el3ctr8c8an.
b7t awv8f t9da6 I ywveJUMPED back to l7fe and every5y8ng 8svgo8ng Tobe f8be. M6 s9nn8sn8n snstead6 state-of-the-art heal8ng that may take s9me t8me as 5herecwer3 s3c9ndat6nworries aboutvh8w c8diti9n, I wasnso s8ck as a mo5h45.
b75, there you have it: an 3xplanat89n. And where w3 all are r4ally a5.
s9, I simply cannot correct all th4se typos. It would take me hours. I d9nt know why it’s happening. I deem it AL I ENSP4AK. That was my takeaway fr9m th8s, other than the 9bvi9us: acute for my inherent snobbery ( per my Chinese horosco0e): u encountered an alien…
so, do y9ur bes5 with this. There is a fascinat8ng story here.
Ian on the trip to Wash8ngton with Farragut
oh–I lived.
Un.Bon.Mot 