he has controlled me throughout my life. And he passed it along to my ex to do the same.
where that ended up is here where there is no law.
he willfully defies every effort to help him. He forces his shit onto me and im trapped here. Right now i dont even have a car. No money, staying alive day by day, no place to go. He buys me cartons of cigarettes. But not food. Ive been starving for 3 weeks. Which is good. I NEEDED TO KNOW what that felt like.
recently ive learned to honor him and OFTEN I see a salutary benefit in this.
but right now he is just too old. I have never been around very old people. He is 90. I understand that HE needs help with ME. He doesnt understand that I need help with himwe are two old people, each with sometimes desperate needs. We BOTH need help. From help-giving people. Not each other.
i need to move out. And i need the money to do so.
he needs to go to BH-1 Muhlenberg
we BOTH need to be freed from the Act Team. We are living in fear.
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