Disoriented

Neck still doesn’t hurt.

This was a miraculous healing.

I can see where the cortisone shots to my knees slowly unraveled the pain in all the joins and hurt places all over my body. Its been ? a few months now and the pain was getting worse and worse and I couldn’t even go out because the car was reflecting my pain and wouldn’t drive right. The pair of us were off the road and I felt like I was getting sicker. And then I finally prayed. I asked for help for the first time in my life, for one thing. I took the car out and drove it on a few short errands on the blessed assurance that the car would not get me into an accident and neither myself nor anyone else would be hurt or harmed. And that WAS the case I got my errands done and felt incredibly restored for getting out my fixed position in my college emblem chair next to the bed. Then I did some other things similar to what a person would have done in Jesus’s day except as we do it i the present. I realized that I was addressing the pain and problems from long ago for me; for me for my son. It was just so awful, just so bad I couldn’t see it. What I DIDNT see was how awful it was from his point of view and I am get a few whacks from him for that today. I am begging the Lord again to let him to get a glimpse if it just enough to be able to forgive me without giving him MORE PAIN over me. My life was my life. His is his. The bond moves off of us at the stage .Or, at least, I don’t know how to put it, but something is happening now that is fairly normal given the parameters. It’s just our way of doing something that everybody passes through, I think. Thank God.

Now, my necking is starting to hurt a bit again and I am sensing that that is a little signal i get to move off of whatever I am doing, It is Done.