I offend

It is the first characteristic of my organic personality disorder.

I am looking for a miracle to fix this, I have offended so many people in so ways and my blogging has sometimes been the worst of it.

Whyt?

Because I am dirt poor.

On the other hanmd, I have intellectual property that is worth millions. If only I could connect it the right way at the right time.

Right now its so bad that I feel like I am on the edge of death it’s so bad, I can’t defend myself from those who take me the wrong way which, with this recent surgery & ceter i am in a paradox.

Before, it was a paradigm shift. Now,a paradox.

My divorce is not legal, thats complicated.

The momey problem has followed me until this very moment..

I thought I was rich when I was young until I found a world of insane wealth.

And then it was must the lackluster me. It was what I needed: to integrate public grade school with major international university to STATE HOSPITAL. to MARRIAGE. And in this quandary I was supporting my life and others’ with the diffcult problem of being English in America and –so much worse than that– having a father who was wasyyyy hi T.

It couldn’t be explainjed to children. I don’t think those people themselves knoew what they were doing, coming from all over the world to Silicon Valley and other hi T hotspots.

That’s how it looks, looking backward but today is feels like a huge loss.

Maybe because of the AT@T breakup..

omg, I think I just solved a problem. The novel 1984 was terrifying to some and my mother was among them. And then, at the same time,.

And that year was the crux of so many frightening things.

And then the millenium and the movie Space Odyssey 2001

Now it’s time to let a lot of things go as we have navigagted into the 21st century and the third millennium..

The world didn’t blow up,, not yet.

I have been out of the picture and I have a whole new world ahead of me now as I return to the living from decades of psych cafre that was purely the problem of obgtaining psych meds I had become addicted to in the first 10 tyears or so of treatment.

DEAD LOSS