resting

Resting for a week. after 4 weeks of constant trials.

I don’t know what happened but I was treated as an infant at the boarding home I stayed at after the oferdoseee (early 2018). I was i a strange poace in my soul after the allmost fatal overdose in 2016.

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I am growning off of that and leaving it beheind. It is the last part of the work that I have to to get my life out of the toiloet.

Other than that I am troubled about my son because he doesn[‘t see this as me. His mother was a problem all his life and he doesn’t see the person That reality of this is that I am horribly torn. I need to go forward with pro-Life activities when I am feeling bretter brcause it is a calling. a horrible one but it is one. Goes along with the iorganic personality disorder, I was ripe for it.

So yes, I was dumped in the woods after being raped, hit and pissed on. I don’t like saying it. It is not my style. I think they knowkck me out bfore they started becasue I don’t rememberanything. \

Then, I don’t remember anything. I have some imagtes thatt I have already tried to share.

I need respite from this andinstead I am on center stage.

So, I have a coupel more days of vacation and then we’ll see about this.

I am trying to finde a drawing but

this is a whisper of Ian, my son, stading among the aliens 4 and 5

I am trying to to remember, alien 5 weildsw s-ears of gold, aline4 weilds lightening sabhres;;;; of blue.

You can see the small figure in the middle a little lower than vertical center.

Miraculously, the wordpressers have made the most beautiful wallpaper (?) out of this, its very subtle but you will ee it if you see tis drawing

The point is, that Ian is y sole inspiration after a lifetime where he came in second after abhorted kids.

I have thoughts about this that I an’t sare right now because I am too tired and, as I have said, I am taking a rest.