web talked today for the first time in decades. it was about the mole-wartv removal. and otherv things.
we resolved that we don’t really know each otherv the way we used to.
i wanted to share further with him about the congenital deficiency in the family, as seen in Uncle graham and in our mother, we have strong genes from our father but a streak of weak mindand emotions probably from grandads battle with tuburgulosis asv a young man. thatsv what my last therapist in florida said. also that mom’s incessant taslking was a symptom iof it.
as for meb in had my own specific organic personalityb disorder that just doesnt quit. its been 2 years now and everything is healealedb over but, ss i anticipated, my face has crumpled around thev sitete of the lesion and the structureis lost. where the mole was there isbthickened skin where on thev othere sideditb isbsoft and delicate as it should be.
i am too ashamed to try to try to try to connect with people as i did on the twon psych wards 9haven tower and and horsham .Other than that I have never really had any genuine fune in my life.
i put it down to being destined a l
l”eader in suffering” and in the Pro-Lifwe Cause.
My personal pain waw fore-odained and i neer wouoe n3ever would hafe been happy anyway. Which does not take away from the pain I elt. It ufered it a little. If I ha grown up aon friends and famiy in
engloam theywoulod have know what5 t5o do right awa aboutnthe oesion onw my facel
Coming from an Em3erican in
america it wouold have felt rude.
As for my brother I will pray ffor him.
Lots of typos here I do not have a esk. and Tannernbudged me of my usual spot, And I can’t read the fine print.
Un.Bon.Mot 