a dystopic Paris

my mother and father honeymooned in Paris before hitting the boat for tha United Stayes for a years working honeymoney, never knkwing what it woukd bring, first of a

my mothet told me when i was a child that some couples are allergic to one another; also that they dined at rhe Captain’s table on the way over and that they bothe got seasick. Also that she had diarrhea in Paris. They landed at Ellis Island I think she said.

So, my husband and I finally found a real home at a rented a 2 bedroom house in P e rris, California south of Riverside ( which is south of LA). T hat is where Ian came into being. Oh the joys and incredible bugaboos of bein’ ian!!!

we started wirh a move south to a community in North San Diego County. Som ewhere i lost a week. I think its finally coming back with aĺl this crazy unbelievable SHIT INPLACE!! A went so deep so far and so tight as nd so strong and so terrified.

. I didnt know you could go like that with meaning. I used to watch romantic comedies before i me Alex.

All I knew as that a) i wasnt going to let myself have another abortion and b) i wanted the baby. The point there is that those are two different thoughts but i wont belabor that. Except to say that i am realizing even now that t was unconsciously colliding into a gut realization about fhe FIRST abortion i was 13. It was probably part of the reason for the 2nd and 3rd abortions when i met Akwx. This was all so tragic.

But having Ian turned it all around.

EXCEPT FOR JOHNS HOPKINS UNIVERSITY HOSPITAL!!!

after all that we battled and fought to make it through they beat us and they broke us.

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