i was in an Apartment in Somerville,
i was livi g wirh two men and another woman.
i was having an affair with one of the men.
it was awful.
the other woman broke the lease and l we ft. Another woman moved in. We were all from major universities in the are. Except J, the one i eas having a relationdhip wit. He was from UVa..
i was so ill i was desperays. I was on a osych medication that was making me sicj
k and i was so depressed yhat i wanted to die. It was something physival.
I tirnef to J bevause i eas fleeing 2 assailants who were tracking me from the old Au Bon Pain in Harvatd Square. One was fellow from Lancaster, PA who knew that my famiky was moving to this area. The other was someone who was living in his car and had a published work. I thi k i had srrn i
him in tbe Fresgman Un I on Freshman Yearm. All this was just befire graduation.
so i hid insidd rhe relTionxhio with J and didnt go to Jarvard Square ant mote.
With ne its like what an older, Jewish woman friend of my mothers said to me a long time ago, before Obama–something that is finally, slowly changing–about black people in America, its not the race or the individuals its the condition because of the legacy of slavery. I have similar issues becuse of a lifetime ofdiagnoziz a nd mistreztment in the Mental Health System. I am treated as less than others and at this point, after rrcent incidtnts, i look so awful people dont even want to sre me.
i have been restored to virginity since the end of my marriage in 2012. I dont drink, at all. My father got got me to take a little wine four nights in a ros last week but it mafe me sick. I asked him not to offer it to ms again and tonight he offered it to me and then t ook it back. I was so rrlieved.
i have discovsred CANDY!!! GUMMY WORMS!!! As an effective elixir for my constipation. Waiting to see hoe that works out, im zn old lady now and rhings look different from here. But i do need to eork it out about J, Nd Philhaven. Tonigjt i hope.
Un.Bon.Mot 