Fatigue

every case of organic personality disorder is unique.

For instance, i was born with it, where some acquire it through an injury or a disease. I read that it is quite common, and that it IS un the Diagnostic and Statistical Reference Manual , althlugh nobody seems to have ever heard of it. ONE professional said that he had heard of it.

My case is classic. Witness the wart/mole lesion to the left of my nose now gone. It s proving to be the tip of an iceberg. I was born with it. I was also born UNWANTED. They conceived me only 4months after my brother was born. They were so young, and in a foreign country they did not understand. This became my problem and Steve’s; and then, way later, Claire’s.

so there is an issue of infant torture here that there is no way to prove but, given the allegations that have been made against me by my own family and efforts to HARM ME, and that i did not even know it until recently i feel i need to return the “honesty” in kind. One thing i must say first is that a factor of my organic personality disorder (is OPD already taken)? is that I am HELPLESSLY HONEST. So yes, that is where my “mal” therapy started. I said something to the first, bad therapist about “running around and around in circles.” And, i did nt understand her non reactin. Claire said something about having a dream about drowning in mud around that time, and i told my mother and she said “Oh she lies like that.” Or something like that. It made me very angry, but HELPLESS

and then of course there was the thing about Claire runnung around the riding ring AND Steven spinning around on the floor in circles on his back at the supermarket, which takes me back to reporting to Sharon about feeling like I was running around in circles in my mind. In her office on Summit Ave., Summit, Nj, 1983

live and learn: now i unferstand that spinn7ng like 5hat r e ptesemts a Satanic oresence sbd, afyer the longrst time, I am healing.

i finally went to a Catholic psyhiatrist on line who couldnt see me but the touch and my faith were enough it took awhile but i am healed. Still healling from some other stuff,