words

in the bible we are constantl e warned and guarded against the power of speech.

i have experienced this even in my early adult life to the point of disaster.

when i was in a psych hospital for t he firet time, half way through senior year in college, a young woman there said, “you have a way with words.” It was the kundest compliment i had ever received.

i was so ill.

and, just now i was thinking back to Sally at Harvard and a story i wrote that had some NEGATIVE zingers about her. It wasnt for her ears but she coulld be intrusive and read it anyway. Who am i to say? I went there smoking 2 packs a day and doing floor exercizes in the living toom.

so, within minutes of moving into the 3 person suite, she had it organized: Colleen (i liked her; we had already been talking) had taken the single bedroom; Sally and I were stuck with bunkbeds. Sally said to me, ” I dont know how people who arent pretty can make love.”

i am feelng very tired as i think of all this.

The main thing is that when my mother and dad came up to Cambridge with my things a day or two later there was a communication that went over my head. Her father and my father knew each other professionally. That’s all I ever knew.