INNOCENT

i feel guilty.

i also feel that people would take advantage of my feelings of guilt to prey on me for theit needs.

like my sister. Has she joined with my father to file a criminsl lawduit against me?

There has been something in the works for months and i just assumed that it was the Hopkins Lawsuit and noone was telling me.

so have these two malfeasant criminals been putting together one of my fathers masterpieces of lies and deceptiond, the work of years, to frame, smear, gaslight, ruin, and, finally, end my life, using his skills of trickery, British Pliamentary Rule sleight of hand, optical illusion, mesmerizing and the gambits of spies?

my knowledge through him and my ex-usband of matters such as these make me feel like a prostitute. They are for men, and not for a wife and mother to know. Because of this knowledge I live in fear. Its fading as I recover from the years of my marriahe to my husband that just didnt work out. and the brutality towards my little boy, and i know that inside, my husband was a good man in desperate straits . And, not to harp on it but, looking back i can plainly see tne work of Lipsey & Co. in the pattern of those years. And, regarding Alex, my father was not so different.

I am so sorry, Ian, for what you went through all your life, and I hope and pray that the bad is beginning to end and I saw last nigjt that you are beginning to grow and change and it was the most beautiful moment. I am ptaying for the best for you and Marissa,

ian what i havent done in my world of psych mess is to to pray to live long to be myself and your mother. It just never even occurred to me.

Blessed Glory Hallelujah!!!

Good Morming.