new blog

so, I stated last night i received a call.

To write a brand new blog with a different emphasis.

im still shaping it in my heart.

but poetry will certainly be a part of it. I am a human being.

and there WILL be an ALIEN theme, yes, ETs.

There will also be drawings.

it will be a professional site. I haven’t framed it yet at all.

this is peace in the middle of drastic times in my family that have been going on for so long.

with my morher gone and /or legally deceased, the family is blowing up. I used to figure my mother had the mental age of 4, I had 35 personalities and my sister had 135 personalities. I let go of that impassioned belief, but that I held it does shed some light on an old status quo here.

I thought earlier tonight that i should just let her have say so and get it all out of her system as i spent my whole life waiting to do that and now its here. I realized–from the perspective i just shared–the deep shit childhood problems and situations she was working out in her life and how I disdained her. Now, there were inexusable things she did to me and i am not going to enumerate them I’m just going to note the rapid healing from the wart-mole surgery and that i am healing as a person. And that the cosmetic phase of the healing comes last and has started and probably will take a few months. I wont be pretty but I will pass for normal.

Thank God, maybe he will finally help me take all this weight off!