over the ocd

Thank God.

I just realized it. This is real. This should be WORLD NEWS!!!

I’m over the OCD.

I was finally able to express it as a “disorder of my reflexes.” It was like I was watching myself think and move and getting stuck.

A doctor in California called it “anxiety reactive” and I took that as being like a nuclear reaction, spreading so fast, contaminating, infecting my every movement. It was pitiable.

So, I just got so used it and yet it was so bizarre. At the supermarket–it was about the only place left to go–I masked it. Anywhere in public, even when in company at home, I masked it, because it was awkward if anybody got involved.

I remember that in California I was afraid to think about my heartbeat because it would stop it! My unconditioned reflexes were beginning to be affected.

So, at the hospitals I was in recently, and during the 5 days in the woods, they scared it off of me.

For one thing, I was on familiar ground from before it started.

And I was off of my ex, who unwittingly made the problem so much worse that I was practically paralyzed in California. It was the same when we moved back East but somehow I naturally internalized it.

I have been in constant pain all these years.

Now, I have horrible neck pain, but a lot of the time it goes off of me.

The OCD is almost completely gone.

THIS IS A MIRACLE!!!