We vacationed in Maine one summer. My brother was catching mackerel as fast as he could put down the line. He took them off the hook and I banged their heads with a hammer. I don’t know why. Did someone tell me to?
At the river we went to one time in New Jersey, I was dragging fishguts out of the water with a stick. A man said, “Do you know what those are?” I don’t remember what I said. My father was right there. I don’t think he said anything.
I definitely had a problem.
At Hacklebarney State Park it was beautiful, we rode on something, I can’t remember what, on the river tide, it was a baptismal experience, into the rushing water over the rocks. It was like that with my brother, some good and some very bad.
In Cape Cod my brother had some worms to go fishing and some predatory ants came into the motel room and attacked them in the night. But we enjoyed walking far out into the sand with the tide out.
Bad things happened at the beach.
Are there beach resorts in Japan?
What is the mood in Japan?
My 1992 Shock blue Acura Integra made my life. But I was supposed to buy the Green 5.0 liter Ford Mustang convertible with a white top or, we were thinking it out for 24 hours and Sandy just let it go and I got a call from the dealer making me feel like I had made a terrible mistake and it was about the abortion…
The Integra was up on a big stand like a whore.
But it was so beautiful.
The Japanese have turned their pain and mess to reflect such great beauty to the Western world, the cars, the cartoons–Pokemon…
I used to try to do that but I have failed.
When I was a young adult on leave from college I was asked to take two young girls to a beach home in Cape May for a weekend by my mother’s friend from work. I was so ill. At that time I didn’t know how to say no in a situation like that. The girl’s father was an author and she had me coming and going. I was staying in the bedroom in a state of terror. frozen stockstill and she said so to her friend. I didn’t think that a person could do that. She used the word “opalescent” which frightened me but made me feel a little better.
The regret when I saw a Ford Mustang convertible, became sickening after a while.
When I drove my son to his boarding school in Florida (weekdays only) in the Acura that one day, I knew that something right was happening, something coming from California. But then we got so lost.
Then we came here.
In Colorado, on the way to the Grand Canyon, the roads were snowy and we passed by a van that had flipped over and 6 Japanese men were crawling out holding on to their cameras.
Oh no!
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The next thing I remember is that we were at a viewing point looking out over the canyons, and there was a store there selling Native American artifacts and I so badly wanted to buy one of these beautiful native American, hand -crafted knives. But they were expensive.
It was like when I was young and I wanted to buy a little Swarovski crystal piece for someone for a gift and it was $25 and I couldn’t really afford it and I realized something about myself. I wasn’t who I thought I was and, years later, I went to meet Sandys parents in Canada and his mother had an absolutely fabulous collection of Swarovski crystal in a beautiful case that she kept in spotless condition.
The sad fact was that I was out of my league and there was no way for me to know it as I had become so mixed up and confused. His sister was pristine. She was very overweight but she kept herself in the most beautiful way. I just didn’t realize how low I had fallen.
Little girls who play in the dump and in the river don’t make it to high places or rather, if they do it becomes a problem for them and for others. That goes to my father and to my mother.
Un.Bon.Mot 