Abt Me

Current status

My health is poor.

I had an MRI done and I have wide spread arthritis. That’s all I was told. The doctor couldn’t comment on the positioning of my neck which leans to the side and I can’t hold my head up. It’s better when I go out and there are things to engage my attention.

What is horrible is that I believe that there is widespread ATROPHY. going back to my childhood of laying around reading day and night.

I have lost so much in the past 9 months since I got out of the hospital, just sitting around trying to hold on. I tire easily. My father doesn’t want to know it but it would really be better for me to take my 2 cats and get into an apartment where I could get out into the open more easily. The history here is stale.

I wanted to clean up after the mess I made two years ago and I have, and there’s not much left here for me to do. It feels like a dead end. I am not capable of being my father’s late-in-life caregiver because it takes all my energy to take care of myself. And he does need someone to be here with him.

Well, I do have one new thing coming on board which may help to refocus the situation: a new psych care deliverer across the county line into Lehigh. That’s coming up this week. So, I leave this post praying…