About Feldman

I ranted about Feldman and complained about him and made fun about him because everybody did. I did it in a really serious way because I was in a really serious condition. Unspeakable.

I am talking about Dr. Alan Feldman who worked in Largo, Florida back in the 2000’s. He was a very kind and sensitive person. Nobody else would see me and he had the courage to take on my case.

His office manager didn’t like me too much because of this and called me a psychopath once in the waiting room. Maybe I was at that time. Who knows? What does that mean anyway?

He said we “we’re close.” He was like that. Kind of homemade. In a really reassuring way. Willing to admit to having human feelings about a patient instead of being appropriately professional. Being another human being. Strictly hands off where appropriately professional practitioners often erred.

When I left his practice, I wanted to give him a gift. Afterwards he told me that the items around his office were given by former instructors, friends, and the like, which I did not realize. But he didn’t make me take the gift back. It was a Swarovski crystal oyster with a pearl. Expensive. My ex was a little upset. I was not meant to suggest anything sexual between him and me. (the “aphrodisiac”) except humorously. It was to represent the analogy of the oyster representing the work of an artist and that psychiatry is deemed an artform. He was one who practiced uniquely, offering therapy alongside the providing of medication.

So, I am pulling out of those years now as a healed and whole and human person. It is a miracle (see my last post.) It has taken other hands and so many experiences to complete the work but Dr. Feldman was a gifted artist among the professionals whom I have worked with.