black & white

…is irrelevant in this regard.

It’s going to happen quickly.

It’s all about the ALIEN project.

Of there isn’t one, one needs to start.

At NASA

I couldn’t draw a picture because it is a sacred image.

But here is one I drew at Philhaven:

It was coming through me to reach my father who was at that time still an incredible person of light. In his mind, it work so fast, so purely. He has lost though the last year and a half.

Noone knew how to handle it.

My sister had it all along. But she forgot to include me and edged others off of me. She never learned to have a sister. My brother and I were like alternate parents for her. I DID take on that responsibility for my mother a lot of the time.

And what did I get for it? A whack in the ass when I couldn’t do it good enough.

So, I moved off to a better life. And now I’m in trouble for abandoning her at my expense.

I do not know what all her troubles were. She hid in Utah at the exact place that Alex and I had to stop for food on the drive from San Diego County to Buffalo, NY. I didn’t see her there, It was like she put a shoe in my blind spot and I couldn’t see my life. Or hers. That went on for ? a decade? more?? And her husband was a Floridian and my understanding is that she visited often to see friends there, (without visiting or even letting me know that she was there.)

All I know is that Steve and I doted on her as a child. And I do now know how that must have felt when we defected to Kent School and then to College and she wasn’t included anymore.