About my son

He means the world to me and nothing else can compare.

The Dove was important, but it became ancillary, through a paradigm shift off of Boston and Manhattan to Buffalo, NY, a stone’s throw from my own birthplace in PA also near Lake Erie, to my relationship with a Canadian husband and the birth of my beautiful son Ian, the subject of severe, dire struggles over the last two years to make things right about the most unbelievably desperate childbearing.

The course of the last 24 months to correct this through my own psychotherapeutic invention called “retroactive interpolation” had been difficult, dangerous, and fabulous and completely worth every part of it, although I am still coming out of it I believe the ground is turning solid again and the second phase, which is called “proactive proliferation” involving the idea of prognosis which is generally completely forgotten in today’s psychiatry; this phase is already beginning to knit together with the first phase as my son begins to see the necessity to turn his mind from the passionate and habitual insanity of the suffering we both experienced to the Lord’s purpose in and through this for an incredible life. The healing has been physical, I am sure that if he can begin to pull himself off it the things he has had to cling to for so long he will begin to be able to see it and we can start together to rebuild his life. Ian, do you remember that I told you that the social worker at the Tower Unit identified the need for us to detach from one another in the way that I was keeping you bound to me? There was a reason for it but I have to be willing to release you, after this holding on so tight, to let you move on into independence and a security within yourself which is the goal of all parenting. I will always be there for you in any way that you need given the circumstances of our, and your life. So long as I am living and afterward I pray that I will be able to be there for you from Heaven when you need me. Right now we are a little insecure.

The Lord loves you.

God is Love.

God Cares.

God has a Plan for each and every one of us, together and separately.