“there will be no reprieve”…

except through Jesus…

I saw a ladder

and fell off of it

and laid down on the floor

and had a seizure

I saw myself on the floor

laying down

and my eyes were rolling around in my head

all at TBH

the ladder

was when it happened to Hauana I realize now, or at least I think so

at the time I was so scared to death and still guarding MY LIFE from after the pacemaker surgery

that I had no feelings whatsoever

except to defend myself

I screamed at night

towards the end

when I saw anybody entering through the door

a male nurse passed by my door three times while I was sitting in a rocker in the seclusion room as I had been asked to I thought that they were doing

a brain scan cuz it felt like it like they were taking pictures of my thoughts the thoughts in my head from all over the place

i don’t know what they took off of me

i never saw the results

i got put on meds for ptsd and ocd

they brought in a vacuum suction tube abortion machine in the middle of the night

or so it seemed

my primary diagnosis was paranoia

I am known for pro-Life activism

I DID NOT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT HAUANA BEING IN DANGER.

I heard something about her being demoted.

I see her dancing and smiling back at me? yes

I made her my only friend. sorry Ian. both of your names mean “John” could be either John the Baptist–who got his head cut off!!! or John of the gospel.