I was falling into fear tonight after sleeping at least 12 hours last night. I woke up feeling happy but then I wasn't sure what was going on. Then, I started cleaning and, it was the weirdest thing, the extremely disgustingly old dustbunnies all looked like lizards and were all the same size and I … Continue reading Money Matters
Author: L Magdalen Murphy
I am a mother of a handsome 29-year-old son, handsome like his father. I never knew that his father was handsome until I recently looked back on old photos. We never made eye contact. Things got worse and worse. The Lord wants us back together. This is our story...WE ARE NOW LEGALLY DIVORCED. MY SON JUST MARRIED!
Today
Today I was very drowsy all day long, more so than I would have expected after returning to Clozaril after just a week or less off of it. I just forced myself up off the bed (it is 7:48 p.m.) to get up and come here to post And I will stay awake until at … Continue reading Today
DANGER
I use the word ALIEN--just like that--frequently and sometimes when I do it comes to me to think of the common use of that word to signify a person of foreign status. It's sort of funny because everyone in my family of origin could qualify and also in my family by marriage. This is, however, … Continue reading DANGER
Clozaril
It's a miracle drug for people like me with "toxic brain syndrome"--who have been run through the mill with every kind of anti-psychotic medicine and anti-anxiety medicine and anti-epileptic medicine and other psych meds--from one doctor after another and on one psych ward after another. Well, that is my profile. I've been one of the … Continue reading Clozaril
The worst part of my life
...now I see it! Excuse me, I only got 3 hours sleep and I don't do too well with that but I have a breaking realization in regard to my current posting that just has to come out. The Lamictal overdose in November of 2016 was the worst thing I ever did to harm myself. … Continue reading The worst part of my life
Egoism
I knew about the Japanese before I started to write about them that they are a highly egoistic culture. As I remember the religion is Shinto and I don't know anything about it even though I pursued Asian studies for a year in High School. I got blown out of the water myself after that … Continue reading Egoism
Face
So, the expression "saving face" comes from Asian culture. I am the proud owner of a new face! An absolutely hideous one!!! I think it will improve with time. But, I'm stuck with it for now. Here, let's see if it's any better in the morning light: it is! Either way, the one I saw … Continue reading Face
For A.
My best friend, I love you. I sense that my posting angered you and I would never willingly do that to you. I had some horrible news last night about my health condition. After 3 hours sleep I woke up to realize it wasn't true. It was a goad to get me to look at … Continue reading For A.
When I was little
We vacationed in Maine one summer. My brother was catching mackerel as fast as he could put down the line. He took them off the hook and I banged their heads with a hammer. I don't know why. Did someone tell me to? At the river we went to one time in New Jersey, I … Continue reading When I was little
yes
...is a beautiful word. yes it does hurt my feeling when I understand that nobody wants to know me when they see how I look right now. Please understand that I am still in a transitional phase and that I am anticipating it will last for at least another two months. Underneath everything else that … Continue reading yes
Un.Bon.Mot 