Face

So, the expression "saving face" comes from Asian culture. I am the proud owner of a new face! An absolutely hideous one!!! I think it will improve with time. But, I'm stuck with it for now. Here, let's see if it's any better in the morning light: it is! Either way, the one I saw … Continue reading Face →

moving on

grqa What a day! My life has turned around on an apex I could never have seen coming. My son is talking. I had a horrible life up until his age, when I met his father. Then although it felt horrible it was beautiful. I thought I had the most beautiful mother in the world … Continue reading moving on →

Worth 900,000,000

lawsuit against Johns Hopkins University Hospital Affective Disorders Unit September 1994 documented in 7 pictures. thats it.

hints and memories

i remember sitting n my bed in high school boarding school) eating candy from the machine, and being in SO MUCH PAi h i have finally figured this out. it was like an overwhelmingly intense ache, an unbearable feeling of absence... OBVIOUSLY, I had had an abortion just as i thought. Dunno about the timing … Continue reading hints and memories →

apology

i made some statements about myself and people who i am close to based on reading about the Chinese "horoscope." first, let me make another apology to kehugh andd Berjs county generally fir things i have said and done here when i was disoruented: most if all for leaving, in 1991, without saying any goodbyes. … Continue reading apology →

About Ian.

i am concerned about my v son. imhave c reasons in b faith to belie c e in b him and that healingg is possible efen himevto keep himn9j ay for now.b in b the dir3st regards. And tobhang on b like hell b to god, can you keep doing it? Saving our liv3s eveeyday … Continue reading About Ian. →

new perspective

im understandin WHY. I inerfered with my cat Daisy and her kittens when i got out of the state ihospital. The first tme. while i was pregnant with Ian i had a nughtmare of giving birth to kittens. On the maternity war when they took the baby to be stabilized,, i had dreams of the … Continue reading new perspective →

woman are born moralists

im finally realizing a womans place. My father quelled me with intellectual coversation all my life. Then i realized he was using my ideas in his own work. i have to remind myself, "Honor thy father." i enjoyed my conversations with my ex. He explained that Canadians are all armchair philosoophers. He waa able to … Continue reading woman are born moralists →

bill clinton

...should have resigned over vetoing the legislation over partial birth abortion. found out how to adjust the backlighting on this tablet so i should be able to post withouut major typos again.

Missing my ex

it took 10 years to be out of the relationship. I needed to change. I sent him emails every day and asked if it was okay. Every 3 months or so I got a one- word reply: "Yes." but I was very ill. I had a relationship in college that scratched the surface of where … Continue reading Missing my ex →