Trap

It's one thing if I get myself into a sick trap, I can handle it. My brother and I practiced this when we were young. I do NOT want to be responsible for putting my old friend A in one. Please understand this. My father had guilt issues over not being a soldier in WWII. … Continue reading Trap →

Sick Work

This is sick work, but it has to be done. Now that I have been able to relinquish the pitiable condition with which I have been enmeshed in the WORST SUFFERING since I was in my late 20's, I can turn my focus to the cause I planned to pick up two years ago, along … Continue reading Sick Work →

Lack of Training in America

Lord, help us all with our lack of training in America, especially with our words! We come here from other countries trying to fit in. I felt lethargic and stupid and left out at best, an ugly mess at worst. What is the American language? It is constantly being redefined. There is money in this. … Continue reading Lack of Training in America →

Angel or ALIEN

just one tiny ignorant little worm at the heart of this. but... the most spectacular vast wings of light, multiplex, crystalline, the size of a few buildings but on outer space terms. poised in the sky in my mind Friend or foe?

Romans 3:23

"for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." My crimes have been mental and relational, in other words, I have hurt people. I have drawn hatred upon myself for not knowing better, and persisting in it. Like "the claw"--recently. I don't really remember and I don't know whether I didn't quit … Continue reading Romans 3:23 →

cats, ALIENS, saints, & angels

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In the Courtroom?

In my mind I see my father in the courtroom. He gave vague information to me about his whereabouts for the last few days, he was vague and they were for a long but indeterminate period. Usually we are here most of the day most of the time and we do our best to be … Continue reading In the Courtroom? →

Trauma on the Psych Ward

First of all, I am just adoring that I can post. This beautiful new computer feels just like a typewriter in the old days and I'm clearing things just like I would have... So, this is what needs to be said here that I just couldn't say before. About the horrifying image that came to … Continue reading Trauma on the Psych Ward →

starting a new life today

it was a hard day yesterday and a hard night last night. the worst was when I had to actually get up and feed the cats. Then. I was up/ I haven't been able to do laundry for at least a week. I have bags and bags of it. I have a lot of clothes. … Continue reading starting a new life today →

two more significant MEMES

one for bug phobia beginning with "palmetto bugs" (huge cockroaches) in south Florida as folllows: heres the whole page: NEXT: MEME FOR NEURLOGICAL SEXUAL ISSUES OVER A LIFETIME: this is when i broke. I ju s t couldnt handle THIS; after everything else. I went to the psych ward, the good one. They let me … Continue reading two more significant MEMES →