the truth at last

my mother is still living. they went their separate ways. it is no business of mine. but some aspects of the situation are. for 2 1/2 years I have not been told when everyone else knew. today I had the weirdest sense that I was communicating with her about how you have to clean up … Continue reading the truth at last →

ADULTERY

I don't know anything about adultery because I don't know anything about sex. 8 just listened to the song by Elton John, Sacrifice, which I heard so often in the hospitalnon the nurses station radio; then earlier I n looked it up and I saw that I hadn't understood it at all. I listened to … Continue reading ADULTERY →

Captain Ko

every ship has to have a captain and I remember from my very first hospitalization epwhen I had just turned 22 a woman older than me saying that she felt like we were on a boat. At the time I disdained her for this but I've grown up since then. I was on a ship … Continue reading Captain Ko →

aliens

alien4 has been with me, also the Correctional Officer, to help me through this transition back to the real world. That's my level.through this, alien5 has been able to enter to help my father, I am looking for my drawing of him. Oh, I know, It sounds perfectly insane, but it is what it is. … Continue reading aliens →

so…

it's finally come down to this. I knew it all my life. My father had problems he couldn't solve. I knew it as a little girl when I tugged at his sleeve trying to get attention from him. I knew it when he called me up at the Lodge Program at Wernersville State Hospital askng … Continue reading so… →

the heart of the irony

...in the mental health system nationwide is so simple. Has anybody commented on this before? I saw this when I was at Philhaven watching someone have his rights explained to him while he was signing in. what on Earth is the meaning of a piece of paper signed by a person reporting himself to any … Continue reading the heart of the irony →

a break on the horizon

someone who can break down these decades of disorganized persecution over a psych condition that was always in question. I used to say it was like walking into a doctors office with a broken leg and a headache from not sleeping and since the doctor is a psychiatrist he finds mental and mood disorders and … Continue reading a break on the horizon →

I will remove this swallowed, held, and choked up poop from the bathroom sink now. it was supposed to be a roast beef sandwich. 2 days later. I have continued to feel sick last night and today. the Lord has antidotes for me which I won't share but I feel confident I will be over … Continue reading →

Goodness in the Act Team

How on earth would I ever have gotten through the last 4 (?) weeks without them? Yes I was very scared leaving my life in the hands of complete strangers. But there is a miraculous change here, the wart/mole change. People don't just walk away any more and they dont ud3avtgody I dy ever did. … Continue reading Goodness in the Act Team →

The Cottage

now I see it! I just wasn't thinking! my sister and her boyfriend want the Cottage! (Where I AM LIVING.) I've made it so nice here they want to move in! And oh so so indulgent 90 year old father of a 50 year old daughter ( my sister) wants to give it to her. … Continue reading The Cottage →