woman are born moralists

im finally realizing a womans place. My father quelled me with intellectual coversation all my life. Then i realized he was using my ideas in his own work. i have to remind myself, "Honor thy father." i enjoyed my conversations with my ex. He explained that Canadians are all armchair philosoophers. He waa able to … Continue reading woman are born moralists →

mother & son

[see note at bott9m re typos] it's an indissoluble bond. my new lamp, inbelnownst to me when i ordered it, is called "Torchiere Mother and Son." It just made the whole thing perfect. As this nev situation started out with a project to retroactively heal everything pertaining to my son's 's life from conception to … Continue reading mother & son →

turnaround

so, I went through the worst MH moment on record after taking a seemingly insignificant overdose in 2015 (?). I just had the weirdest, irresistible urge to put pills in my mouth and the urge finally won on my parents anniversary. I was j7s5 sitt8ngvthere at the dining room table where I k4pt all the … Continue reading turnaround →

Me and my son incarcerated

a special person goes to jail I couldn't bear the thought. Meanwhile, i was incarcerated on an extended acute care unit after a horrible overdose and I couldn't do anything to help. I think that we are slowly losing those years (for the good). I just realized what used to happen to me when I … Continue reading Me and my son incarcerated →

extermination

I just figured out the word for what my father wants to do to me. He hates me. And has since the moment I was born. all this, point, everything that's going down, is because of his naive immaturity. He's still the same at 90. He needs to go away for a little while, just … Continue reading extermination →

destroyed freshman week at Harvard

she took me with her to see the movie "Love Story," compulsory for incoming Freshman. We went to a party and two young men came to our door looking for me and found her instead. They invited her to a party. She hit it off with one of them and they dated through college. Actually … Continue reading destroyed freshman week at Harvard →

denouement

alien invasion. I stopped it. It was coming through me. I was so naive.. I understood from the outset that they could be good or bad just like Human beings on earth. But i am sure they are under God just like us. S8ck alien on the way to the hospital little figure in the … Continue reading denouement →

pulling some things together.

An idle stroll through some recent movements captured in drawings. I stepped on a toad in the dark of evening and felt terrible about it. But i also felt afraid, which, I think, isn't normal. It was an accident. I said to myself I matter more to God than a toad don't I? Well HE … Continue reading pulling some things together. →

Occult healing

I am finally stepping free from that ICU table where I have lived all these many years. the MH System may not work very well on its own but where God steps in it comes together. As here. clamped catheter agony i dont know why this happened to me and maybe I never will but … Continue reading Occult healing →

my mother

ashes to ashes dust to dust. if you did not die I do not know what to say. a luncheon at your favorite most expensive restaurant does not seem like the right send off and I am very glad I escaped going but look at all the trouble it's caused. Bernard used the word institutionalized … Continue reading my mother →