About Dad

in other words, words, Dad, Alex. he was so insecure about my male College associations. he was so way high above them as a husband and friend to me and Ian. as a Canadian he had the habits of an armchair intellectual. he had his flaws. But he had a few years on them. He … Continue reading About Dad →

Going through another change

People don't believe I'm me. I have talked about the cosmetic phase of the mole-wart removal healing and I'm in it. My debit Visa was declined three times yesterday. I can only assume that the bank thought it was not me when I deposited a modest check of $100 and put a hold on my … Continue reading Going through another change →

psych care

they take you, they take what you have, then they send you out again. They talk to you about the revolving door, and plant seeds in your mind to bring you back. The expression in itself is one in itself. At this time in my life I fear to go through an actual revolving door. … Continue reading psych care →

Proactive Proliferation

It starts. The court case is closed. The rest of our lives finally begins. It comes down to the ectopic pregnancy. My mother went to the hospital on my fifth birthday, so it's easy to remember. She talked to my about it quite a bit and I do remember. She showed me the scar on … Continue reading Proactive Proliferation →

So…

I will just move along (from my last post). What I see, as I have said, is that our present quandaries began with the Industrial Revolution. I said it in pencil on paper and don't know what happened to it. About 4 pages. It turned into an ethos called "Progress" and I remember thinking, "Why?" … Continue reading So… →

oriented

For the first time since we left the vicinity of Pittsburg (I was born near there) on our way to the Buffalo area, where I was to have my son, I am oriented. Alex let go of me on the way, and I was not lost but disoriented. I never got the hang of NSEW … Continue reading oriented →

Oh, and another thing

"The reports of my death have been greatly exaggerated." ??Author? (Mark Twain?) I believe my mother and father have collected several death certificates on me. They believe I am gone, bribe the coroner and get a death certifate prior to my actual death which doesn't come. Generally my mother created the suicide attempts and kept … Continue reading Oh, and another thing →

The crux of the matter–photos

my sister at risk in the sand my sister out of the sand, safe in the arms of her big brother and sister recaptured Neither my brother nor I would have ever dreamed of hurting my sister. If she got hurt in some way when we were taking care of her it would NEVER have … Continue reading The crux of the matter–photos →

Confession

I have to confess, right now, about what I did to the person whose name I will not give. I forced him into a relationship with me because the roommate whose mother didn't like me had a forever relationship with a boy she met Freshman Week so I wanted to do the same. He asked … Continue reading Confession →

Fiction

Tablet containing alien drawings and other drawings done at Philhaven Hospital in Mt. Gretna, PA prior to June of last year (2022) and containing emails up until the present detailing this situation for movie rights is available for 5 million. Please contact me at lmurphymack5@gmail.com My policy of priding myself on doing everything all by … Continue reading Fiction →