insights

my insights come partly from God but mostly from Ian, my son. my father steals them and presents them as his or says that my sister wrote them. he denies that he has any copies of my writing but I have seen them on his desk. this Is the single hardest hit I experience in … Continue reading insights →

things happen

Steve. Moved to manhattan; a divorce, an apparent suicide. Maybe we'll never know. me. 5 suicides 4 dead babies. too much. there's no comeback from this but I do enjoy the more normal habits of daily living that I have here which I never observed before in my life and I am grateful to my … Continue reading things happen →

the truth at last

my mother is still living. they went their separate ways. it is no business of mine. but some aspects of the situation are. for 2 1/2 years I have not been told when everyone else knew. today I had the weirdest sense that I was communicating with her about how you have to clean up … Continue reading the truth at last →

ADULTERY

I don't know anything about adultery because I don't know anything about sex. 8 just listened to the song by Elton John, Sacrifice, which I heard so often in the hospitalnon the nurses station radio; then earlier I n looked it up and I saw that I hadn't understood it at all. I listened to … Continue reading ADULTERY →

A break in the clouds

as the confusion gradually resolves I am clearing a lot of bull that I have held onto for what seems like centuries. first of all my sister has her own issues and should be attending to them not me. That's about all I have to say on that account at this time. But I have … Continue reading A break in the clouds →

the heart of the irony

...in the mental health system nationwide is so simple. Has anybody commented on this before? I saw this when I was at Philhaven watching someone have his rights explained to him while he was signing in. what on Earth is the meaning of a piece of paper signed by a person reporting himself to any … Continue reading the heart of the irony →

I will remove this swallowed, held, and choked up poop from the bathroom sink now. it was supposed to be a roast beef sandwich. 2 days later. I have continued to feel sick last night and today. the Lord has antidotes for me which I won't share but I feel confident I will be over … Continue reading →

Goodness in the Act Team

How on earth would I ever have gotten through the last 4 (?) weeks without them? Yes I was very scared leaving my life in the hands of complete strangers. But there is a miraculous change here, the wart/mole change. People don't just walk away any more and they dont ud3avtgody I dy ever did. … Continue reading Goodness in the Act Team →

Angels, cats, and aliens

some things we don't dare say. but then we do. I am now officially in retirement from the worst and hardest fights of my life and seeing the forest for the trees. fighting abortion it's like when the Berlin Wall fell. but we are still fighting. but it was like seeing the dove and knowing … Continue reading Angels, cats, and aliens →