I grieve for my father and the life that we had. I grieve for the person, the man that he was. We sacrificed. Because he was doing things that were important. Hopkins trashed all that. my father offered to punch me and my mother picked up Ian and fled here to the cottage where I … Continue reading next step.
Category: Atheism
take courage
I was asked to not post here for a while and I was observing this; with good results. but I have to report here that I have come out in force about MY ALIEN ENCOUNTER. I reported it to the appropriate authorities. I saw that that was my responsibility especially as a Havard-Radclife CLGS.. things … Continue reading take courage
pain-taking; 2
Then, there's the physical pain, largely unreported. it started with Chelsea, last week. she gave me cortisone shots for my knees. I am largely out of torturous agony for the first time in 25 years. it affected my whole body. There's a story there about falling on my knees, over and over., Sle,ep has been … Continue reading pain-taking; 2
pain-taking
I won't do it any more. I fight back. I remember saying a long time ago that In the 80's it was about "farming out the pain." my father used to say it. my pain at that time was future-oriented. I had no idea where I was going or what I was doing. 8n 5he … Continue reading pain-taking
Alien world
I'm a thinkling. that's my status in alien world. humble and small. recently I heard "walk in love" on the radio and I adored this expression. we humans on this earth during this pandemic are thinklings walking in love. we have been led to question some certain basic things about our society. surely the Lord … Continue reading Alien world
Finally!
it is clear to me and if I'm wrong then Im wrong, that my mother IS STILL LIVING. and that my brother IS NOT. they were able to match his teeth to his dental records. my mourning, then, was not ridiculous and if he is still out there and he's laughing this off he's a … Continue reading Finally!
breakaway
They are controlling me. Issues Been doing it for a long time. My father sells it. I just heard a little two-tone chime in my left ear like the recurrent pretty chime the tablet sends out regularly. Now I really know. I also know to honor my father (and mother). I also know to stand … Continue reading breakaway
insights
my insights come partly from God but mostly from Ian, my son. my father steals them and presents them as his or says that my sister wrote them. he denies that he has any copies of my writing but I have seen them on his desk. this Is the single hardest hit I experience in … Continue reading insights
okay okay okay
last year, before the last year that I spent in the hospital, my father, who was in a strange state after losing my mother, was puttIng me through little poisonings, generally of take-home fast food. Once I woke up in the middle of the night with diarrhea and i heard him say t o me … Continue reading okay okay okay
the truth at last
my mother is still living. they went their separate ways. it is no business of mine. but some aspects of the situation are. for 2 1/2 years I have not been told when everyone else knew. today I had the weirdest sense that I was communicating with her about how you have to clean up … Continue reading the truth at last
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