i am concerned about my v son. imhave c reasons in b faith to belie c e in b him and that healingg is possible efen himevto keep himn9j ay for now.b in b the dir3st regards. And tobhang on b like hell b to god, can you keep doing it? Saving our liv3s eveeyday … Continue reading About Ian.
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mother & son
[see note at bott9m re typos] it's an indissoluble bond. my new lamp, inbelnownst to me when i ordered it, is called "Torchiere Mother and Son." It just made the whole thing perfect. As this nev situation started out with a project to retroactively heal everything pertaining to my son's 's life from conception to … Continue reading mother & son
turnaround
so, I went through the worst MH moment on record after taking a seemingly insignificant overdose in 2015 (?). I just had the weirdest, irresistible urge to put pills in my mouth and the urge finally won on my parents anniversary. I was j7s5 sitt8ngvthere at the dining room table where I k4pt all the … Continue reading turnaround
Missing my ex
it took 10 years to be out of the relationship. I needed to change. I sent him emails every day and asked if it was okay. Every 3 months or so I got a one- word reply: "Yes." but I was very ill. I had a relationship in college that scratched the surface of where … Continue reading Missing my ex
Me and my son incarcerated
a special person goes to jail I couldn't bear the thought. Meanwhile, i was incarcerated on an extended acute care unit after a horrible overdose and I couldn't do anything to help. I think that we are slowly losing those years (for the good). I just realized what used to happen to me when I … Continue reading Me and my son incarcerated
extermination
I just figured out the word for what my father wants to do to me. He hates me. And has since the moment I was born. all this, point, everything that's going down, is because of his naive immaturity. He's still the same at 90. He needs to go away for a little while, just … Continue reading extermination
destroyed freshman week at Harvard
she took me with her to see the movie "Love Story," compulsory for incoming Freshman. We went to a party and two young men came to our door looking for me and found her instead. They invited her to a party. She hit it off with one of them and they dated through college. Actually … Continue reading destroyed freshman week at Harvard
Trap
this is the denouement, the unraveling of this vast malpractice suit against John's Hopkins Hospital Affective Disoorders Unit. it started outside St Mary's Catholic Church in Kutztown, PA, home of Kutztown University; so I have been very self-assured in pursuing this cause because I knew that I was called. the main thing is that the … Continue reading Trap
next step.
I grieve for my father and the life that we had. I grieve for the person, the man that he was. We sacrificed. Because he was doing things that were important. Hopkins trashed all that. my father offered to punch me and my mother picked up Ian and fled here to the cottage where I … Continue reading next step.
a short life in pictures
Me, at 13, a nerd Kent Scool graduation 1979. I don't know where I am in this picture but I know that I was lost. It was a sad day for me. But the parties up and down the northeast coast for the next few weeks were thrilling. almost as exciting as graduating (a year … Continue reading a short life in pictures
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