turnaround

so, I went through the worst MH moment on record after taking a seemingly insignificant overdose in 2015 (?). I just had the weirdest, irresistible urge to put pills in my mouth and the urge finally won on my parents anniversary. I was j7s5 sitt8ngvthere at the dining room table where I k4pt all the … Continue reading turnaround →

Me and my son incarcerated

a special person goes to jail I couldn't bear the thought. Meanwhile, i was incarcerated on an extended acute care unit after a horrible overdose and I couldn't do anything to help. I think that we are slowly losing those years (for the good). I just realized what used to happen to me when I … Continue reading Me and my son incarcerated →

Occult healing

I am finally stepping free from that ICU table where I have lived all these many years. the MH System may not work very well on its own but where God steps in it comes together. As here. clamped catheter agony i dont know why this happened to me and maybe I never will but … Continue reading Occult healing →

Botch; cats have souls

not a botch protects me (am a botch) this is my cat Tanner flying at the porch window.

Weak today

Yesterday I could barely walk, today I feel sick all over and in pain that I cannot describe, t is safe to assume that my coffee was poisoned. It's been done before and the taste and the feelng are the ssme. Ive thrown out 2 good bags of coffer, I stop there. I'm out of … Continue reading Weak today →

Quiet

it's quiet today. Every step that you take is changed by the end of the reign of Queen Elizabeth It and the beginning of the reign of a king, the first male monarch in 80 years. it just goes to show that Queen Elizabeth had her ear to every heartbeat, at home and abroad. God … Continue reading Quiet →

take courage

I was asked to not post here for a while and I was observing this; with good results. but I have to report here that I have come out in force about MY ALIEN ENCOUNTER. I reported it to the appropriate authorities. I saw that that was my responsibility especially as a Havard-Radclife CLGS.. things … Continue reading take courage →

gaslighting

I just looked up the meaning of this expression the other day .and I finally understand what has going on. Its a specialized form of harassment and persecution. I just looked it up again to be sure of myself. it is of concern to the American Psychological Assocation and it is described as the manipulation … Continue reading gaslighting →

pain-taking

I won't do it any more. I fight back. I remember saying a long time ago that In the 80's it was about "farming out the pain." my father used to say it. my pain at that time was future-oriented. I had no idea where I was going or what I was doing. 8n 5he … Continue reading pain-taking →

commitment

That word can mean such nice things. but it can also mean being placed involuntarily in a psychiatric setting. I have been running from this word for 42 years. I will follow the Lord.