Cigarette

Freshman Year, Kent School, Kent, Connecticut, 1975. Praying for St. Maximilllion Kolbe to go there, to the road behind the dorm i lived in, where I was rooming with a Black girl from Harlrm, a scholarship student, who had a pack of cigarettes. Praying for him to take those cigarettes out of my mouth and … Continue reading Cigarette →

Angels Do Appear

My life took a strange new turn last night. I was in the ER at about 1 in the morning with my 4th case this year of pneumonia +UTI. A woman came in with a computer and, taking me off guard, she started talking at large about her experience of a doctor who didn't listen … Continue reading Angels Do Appear →

Fatal lost email; a prayer to St Isadore

Oh Lord! In the fall of 2000, still the early days of email, I composed a long, poised email welcoming my mother and father home from their trip to Europe following a dinner in Texas honoring the Nobel Laureate, the incrinventor of the Inregrated Circuit. My father gave the Keynote Addtess. Well i finished it … Continue reading Fatal lost email; a prayer to St Isadore →

2009

Smooth move, Cameron. This is a teaser for my book, which might not come out for another year or more. So, when he was chasing me around the house trying to get me to give him my son's birth certificate so that he could file for rite of abode in the UK; and insisting that … Continue reading 2009 →

Yellow Butterfly

Well I was sitting in the garden outside the conservatory, smoking a cigarette; pondering the mysteries. I saw a yellow butterfly flying up high in the trees; not a common sight here. I used to see them in Florida. Here, it reminded me that I am above the animals; specifically, the cats. I have been … Continue reading Yellow Butterfly →

Update

Starting a new med tomorrow that I have been waiting on for 3 weeks. It was approved this morming by my insurance. In the meantime everything is coming out in the wash, i've realized that my mother hated me for being born. She loved her son, her firstborn, and i came too soon after. She … Continue reading Update →

Red, raw eye

There was an updated version of this last post that somehow got lost. I hit the "update" by button and left it aside. Only later did i realize that it hadnt updated; and there was no record in my drafts. This was a terrible loss as this year's bad anniversary was combined with the commemoration … Continue reading Red, raw eye →

Abortion Anniversary

I never see it coming. I was even thinking about it on and off for the last couple of days. Thinking, I seem to be over it (because it usually bothers me). Then, just now, I emailed my ex. It was his child. I thought I was too sick to have the baby. This was … Continue reading Abortion Anniversary →

Back online

Our internet went out. It was the weather! I got a little paranoid but the Lord led me right: to let it go, and then I heard the whole house internet was out, it was the storm. I'm a step ahead! I can get a mobile hotspot in my cellphone. They have silly little flip … Continue reading Back online →

Cut off

I am cut off on my email via no internet on my laptop and no outgoing email on my bn phone. And this post may not make it into print as i have mysteriously lost my last two posts, and cant access my desktop WordPress in my laptop. My guiding voices tell me that the … Continue reading Cut off →