“Life is a Certain Way”

Ive said this before and now ill say it again, you go only so far --and it can be miles or decades or centuries--and then all of a sudden there it is, lifes basic conundrum. Im looking at destiny and then, im sitting diwn to ear a bowl of ceresk--simple enough. But i had 3 … Continue reading “Life is a Certain Way” →

It is well with my soul

So at 56 i have finally found my way out of the bix. My sister found it at age 13. She USED ME. I renember the monent, and that i felt like id climbed behind a rovk id nevrr find the way around. My brother took my mother on wben he was 18 and hus … Continue reading It is well with my soul →

Down to the wire

Well its the last moments of a life passage thats been going down here for the last several weeks. I just went to the supermarket and i funally heard that "still, small voice that everybody always taljs about. It said "be still." And i suddenly realuzed, my life is in order.

Patience

I am waiting on sonething very important. In the meantime the Lord gave me something wonderful to do. (Oh and yes, i hereby reclaim that word "wonderful" to be redeemed from what the Governor of New York made of it back in tbe 2000s. (Was it the Governor who went to jail on vice charges?) … Continue reading Patience →

Insane Dad

I am prompted by the Lord to extend Love to my parents, who are out of line. I finally called my mother out on her folly She launched a frontal assault, taking me on about the unleanliness here in the cottage and what are they going to do about me when they are gone. How … Continue reading Insane Dad →

Baaad

This is for real they really do it. They tell people this lie. Im afraid to repeat it because somebody else will believe it. Two peopke i repeated it to didnt think that it was common sense that t it was a lie. She said that i put a metal pepper shaker IN MY VAGINA … Continue reading Baaad →

Today

...is the day after yesterday, the day to implement what yesterday said and i did! I talked to my father about my mother, Sister M the nun and Miss D the therapist. About the sexual damage. That as my father he should be the one man i can trust. And about needing "a bit of … Continue reading Today →

Watershed

So im sitting here and i prayed and i sat diwn in my mind with the pastor who closed tbe door on me and my talk of sexual abuse. And God showed me, yes. You will have to acceot this evl from me. And i do get words like this from him at times. And … Continue reading Watershed →

Nasty; 3

I am noone. I am nowhere. Just another sinner. The good thing about me is that i love my son and Satan and my mother interfered with that today. So its back to praying for the intervention of King Solomon the Wise. I have this.

Nasty; 2

Yes SATAN is NASTY. Last time i exoerienced an attack like this (see my last post) i couldnt accept that it was real because it was so cruel. Now i know that this is exactly what Satan does. He attacked like this a year and a half ago when i was an inpatienr on … Continue reading Nasty; 2 →