I obtained an awake abortion procedure via vaccuum suction of the uterus. I was told there would be mild cramping. Instead it was unbearably painful. My problem wss that i felt ill with the pregnany, i was taking two psych meds that were dangerous in pregnancy, Haldol abd Tegretol. I was drinking alcohol regularly snd … Continue reading Report card on services from Planned Parenthood obtained in February of 1990.
Category: Christianity
More on Ill Today
On the theme of illness and insight, and being a prophet, i was taken for one at the hospital in Tampa in 2003 under Dr. Strangeman. It was an easy call to make. Later i said i was a genius, had a high IQ and they all got mad at me and i went into hiding. … Continue reading More on Ill Today
Red alert
I funalky "have* the situation here. I was a disciplinary problem for both my mother and my teachers when i was a girl. I was emotionally blind and non-responsive, progressively dull and insensitive because if the being kneed in tbe crotch. I was a pervert. But i was extremely imtelligent. My father, who had his … Continue reading Red alert
God Is
Eternity is happening all at once all the time. Thats how God works. So retroactivity is easy for Him and He holds the future in the palm of his hand. Thats how enormous His mind is. Awesome God. So live in peace.
Gotcha
My father was leaning over this way trying to grab ahold of me to hold against my mother and i refused him. Thats how it played out all these years. Im back at tbe dump looking to pick out a different life. I still remember that day in small town New Jersey south of Manhattan. … Continue reading Gotcha
Retroactive emancipation; more
Im thinking about it. Im remembering being lost along a highway in NJ when i was 16. With a heavy backpack and no map. Taking a ride from a man in a van. I could have been killed. * Let me out of the car." I said. And he did. On an offramp into a … Continue reading Retroactive emancipation; more
Miraculous Medal
Miss Marie gave it to me yesterday and it is like when tbe second plane hit the Wirld Trade Center and President Bush took notice. First she taught me the Jesus prayer, "Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner," and it opened up my world. Now i know that Mary … Continue reading Miraculous Medal
Retroactive Emancipation
Retroactive emancipation is perfect because it happens by law at 16. That's when i ran away from home. They left me at the house in NJ alone when they went on a two week hiking trip in New England. My brother took the station wagon and went to his girlfriend's house and i hadnt gotten … Continue reading Retroactive Emancipation
Sunday evening
Waiting on a call from an old friend. Made it to church today and it was very good. Recently i have been saying that if only i could have turned to religion instead of the psych world when i was young id have been much better off. And thats how i felt today. Like i … Continue reading Sunday evening
Tuesday evening
I missed partial hospital again today but the group leaders okayed it as promised and, God willing, i will go tomorrow. It was terribly stormy this morning and i felt weak in my groin from stress and laying in bed. Now it is near time for bed and i am feeling much better. I went … Continue reading Tuesday evening
Un.Bon.Mot 