Horse

Im finally getting it all figured out. My life in my family since i was 28 years imd has been dictated entirely by tbe death if my sister's horse. This is exactly as crazy as it sounds. They got a backhoe to BURY HER ON THE PROPERTY. (The horse, not my sister.) (Did i mention … Continue reading Horse →

My Weight

I remember despairing down in St. Petersburg, Florida, when i heard somebody say on the radio they just had to "lose weight and quit smokimg." Thzt was what it came down to. I dont want to dismay my reader with a report of my weight except to say that for a long time it has … Continue reading My Weight →

Hell Month

April--Hell month--is finally over. It spilled over into today: i had the apex of Hell month on Monday, the 30th, wben i saw my lawyer in the morning, after doing bloodwork first thing, then a yearly appointment with my PCP to catch up on this Hell Year-and-a-half of continuous hospitalization+boarding home. It was the 1s … Continue reading Hell Month →

Everything works to the good…

Well i self published a book recently. It was called "Every Cloud..." actually it was a year and a half ago. It didnt sell. But im glad i went to the trouble to publish it. The theme was that even the tiniest and apparently most inopportune things are in Gods hands and work together for … Continue reading Everything works to the good… →

C difficile

A lot of change since i last posted. Ive been very ill. I have 'c difficile,' the highly infectious diarrhea bug. And finally realize i need to stay in my room. The first few days took me to a room at the Hospital. The first night night i was falling and delirious and gushing diarreah, … Continue reading C difficile →

Cutting in line

The did it to me at breakfast this morning and tbey did it to me st 1030 smoke break. A white man let a black man and a black wonan cut in front of me. See "Mending Fences..." im dealing with this and the working out the sexual abuse with ny father at the same … Continue reading Cutting in line →

Vindicated on the smoking porch

The young black male psych tech was caught at it. By dear wonderful med tech N (fighting the good fight for that word "wonderful.") The female tech out there whipped the lighter out if my hand. And then he used the word "vampire" and i was way ahead if him. I got Haribo sour vampire … Continue reading Vindicated on the smoking porch →

Back to the nasty roommate

What makes it bad is that she is brought up as a Catholic. She knows all the prayers i am saying to myself and senses them. And can pull up a Catholic young girl, her younger self, in her defense. She knows my insecurity because she can see where my home cooked faith is bogus. … Continue reading Back to the nasty roommate →

Mending Fences with Black America: revised and updatedx10; Apology Retracted

NOTE: I found in the past that speaking openly in this matter moved the conversation forward so i do not remove this post even though i hesitate to leave it here. When i wrote to the Times about reverse prejudice in South Flirida, there was a plethora of commentary about the Black mans low self … Continue reading Mending Fences with Black America: revised and updatedx10; Apology Retracted →

Torn

I was torn in the van ride over to partial hospital program this morning. The driver was using the spoken GPS guidance to get here. I exclaimed, "wow!" And thought of when I held the bright blue cell phone all lit up in lights that i had in Florida thinking, this is the culmination of … Continue reading Torn →