My mother is napping so she can't come to visit. I wanted her to, because i am on my last pack of cigarettes, i suddenly discovered. That carton went by fast. So she and my father will cone tomorrow. I hate that "father," as it applies to my dad, is a humorous word. I remember … Continue reading Cutting to the chase
Category: Christianity
Immanence
Subtitled Very Important Post Problem on the smoking porch continuing to be resolved alongside my OCD, and the DO, DO NOT voices with inception when I was refusing Zyprexa yet taking Topamax, the Topamax I am taking again now. I remember saying to myself on the psych ward, 1, i can't die for my cat … Continue reading Immanence
UTI plus
It turned out I was super constipated too. Generally these days i have to use a suppository for constipation about every 5 days and this time I went 6 days and last time I didn't go enough. So I was feeling a little boggy as well as being immobilized by the UTI. God bless my … Continue reading UTI plus
Big J.
Big J. on the smoking porch is out of line. This man has the mental age of his shoe size which is even more alarming because they must be about size 16, this man is HUGE, and he throws his weight around, that's what he's doing now. His size wins out over any rational argument. … Continue reading Big J.
The Answer–Live for Christ
I didnt get it right away. How silly of me. God has saved me from death and brought me to new life. I didn't bother to ask Him what I should do! Live for Him of course!
Wow
Big things are in the pipeline. This morning I made up with the patient B. whom i mentioned in another post: he had a bad fall over the weekend so it was timely. I had forgiven him and repented if a bad attitude towards his clumsiness borne out if resentment. Thank God. On the way … Continue reading Wow
End of the Day
It has been a very funny day, funny strange. At the end if the day it comes back to my phone call with my mother. I called her after falling into a sin, thinking I would be safe, and then I wasn't. She got in a line about my shoes, akways a bone of contention … Continue reading End of the Day
New Innocence, Continued
God tells us to give the reasons for our faith, and it is delightful to do it. I was thinking back to the awful place where i came here to Pennsylvania after the divorce instead if following my dream of going back to the antique and beautiful apartment complex in Buffalo we moved to to … Continue reading New Innocence, Continued
New innocence
Finally I found myself in tears and held by Jesus. Other things went wrong besides the ones I mentioned in my last post "Ectopic Pregnancy," and i realized that i have changed since yesterday as described in ny post "Freedom," about a release from the sex with my husband which had continued in my mind. … Continue reading New innocence
Ectopic Pregnancy
Somewhere in all this posting i neglected to record the moment where my mother's ectopic pregnancy came true. She banished it from memory all her life but we have all lived with it. In the post "Sick Today" i recorded The place where she grabbed at my soul, and the nightswatchman caught me there unprotected … Continue reading Ectopic Pregnancy
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