My roommates sister came with half a dozen shiney clear plastic hangers, half a dozen shiny clear plastic hangers with metal clips, and a dozen heavy duty wire hangers. They were pleasantly clanging and clashing together as she fumbled with them getting them into her wardrobe. I could not judge for sure but she did … Continue reading Roommate
Category: Christianity
Sick Today
Doing penance for going off on my roommate yesterday (In my mind, but i can tell she felt it) over her getting on the phone when i was desperate to pray. I talked about it in my last post. I woke up in a BAD way this morning and finally understood that that was where … Continue reading Sick Today
Jury Duty
After a day that was salvaged from a bad start to a lofty place, i am beached on a rocky shore with no help in sight. I got to the place where my mother had to give it over to my ex to let us be but then that clarity failed through my roommate usurping … Continue reading Jury Duty
Oh My Soul
I see my whole life like an ocean of woe, but its a sunny day, and thete ate a few seagulls to delight. Im letting it all go. Challenging my mother, finally, felt different from what I thought. I called her to see if she was planning to come to visit and she was not … Continue reading Oh My Soul
Most important email of my life
Two emails to my mother Well this is actually the second most important. The first one was one that I accidentally dumped when email was still new and not so finely crafted, and I was welcoming the 'rents home from Europe after their trip there following after a dinner in Texas to honor the … Continue reading Most important email of my life
Happy, desultory meanderings
I couldnt be happier. My son is working a respectable job, nothing fancy but it delights my heart. He didnt say and I didn't want to pressure him but my mother told me. On the side he's doing some computer work for my ex which keeps his mind busy. Its been a funny day, i … Continue reading Happy, desultory meanderings
Sudden Death in the Smoke Shack
Well I thought I had it beat. With all this that I've been going through, and private smoke breaks, I've gotten in touch with gentler times, despite the horrors and a gentler me, happier, more positive, even with all the tragedy. But im forced back into the Smoke Shack by various factors including rain, and … Continue reading Sudden Death in the Smoke Shack
Oh Miss S.
What a time it's been. I haven't thought if you much since then. In the end, as fall semester in James House wore on, I was moving into acute paranoid stress psychosis. Your worst nightmares were true. I thought of harming you. I won't say it all even here because it would probably get me … Continue reading Oh Miss S.
Illness and Insight
God has some brutal or "brute force" ways of working. As soon as I said I would trust in his always keeping the thread for me, He broke it. And at the same time he showed me my roommate, who is, it turns out, a Catholic. (She went to Mass this morning.) So much as … Continue reading Illness and Insight
Breaking News–A Miracle
OR "The Power of Repentance" How can I share this? I have trusted in 'promptings,' like St. Faustian, feeling foolish and simple and as if God was playing a game to humiliate me and now His LOVE is surging through. I see the face if Jesus gentling me through all the broken places. "You have … Continue reading Breaking News–A Miracle
Un.Bon.Mot 