“Acknowledgement”

posting on my knees. now i am sitting cross-legged on the floor.. here are the words above: "Acknowledgement is encouragement. "so important. "verification and validation also. "in Jesus day, the possibilities for verification were so much slimmer. No cell phone. No email. "But, people jyst knew their saviour when they saw Him. "Today we chase … Continue reading “Acknowledgement” →

About Ian.

i am concerned about my v son. imhave c reasons in b faith to belie c e in b him and that healingg is possible efen himevto keep himn9j ay for now.b in b the dir3st regards. And tobhang on b like hell b to god, can you keep doing it? Saving our liv3s eveeyday … Continue reading About Ian. →

new perspective

im understandin WHY. I inerfered with my cat Daisy and her kittens when i got out of the state ihospital. The first tme. while i was pregnant with Ian i had a nughtmare of giving birth to kittens. On the maternity war when they took the baby to be stabilized,, i had dreams of the … Continue reading new perspective →

bill clinton

...should have resigned over vetoing the legislation over partial birth abortion. found out how to adjust the backlighting on this tablet so i should be able to post withouut major typos again.

Home

even if its only for 24 hours, right now I feel at peace wirh my father and at home. he went out to buy cigarettes for me down the road; i slept twice today,whatever happens i am glad for this moment. fixed my keyboard to stop the typos. Comparatively. whatever may come, praise the Lord, … Continue reading Home →

mother & son

[see note at bott9m re typos] it's an indissoluble bond. my new lamp, inbelnownst to me when i ordered it, is called "Torchiere Mother and Son." It just made the whole thing perfect. As this nev situation started out with a project to retroactively heal everything pertaining to my son's 's life from conception to … Continue reading mother & son →

turnaround

so, I went through the worst MH moment on record after taking a seemingly insignificant overdose in 2015 (?). I just had the weirdest, irresistible urge to put pills in my mouth and the urge finally won on my parents anniversary. I was j7s5 sitt8ngvthere at the dining room table where I k4pt all the … Continue reading turnaround →

Missing my ex

it took 10 years to be out of the relationship. I needed to change. I sent him emails every day and asked if it was okay. Every 3 months or so I got a one- word reply: "Yes." but I was very ill. I had a relationship in college that scratched the surface of where … Continue reading Missing my ex →

praising Philhaven

It was a clean and spartan stay where I was able to divest myself of a lot of damage from what they did to me at Haven in Reading. I saw that a lot of people were quite happy there. I just wasn't a good fit. And its probably a problem in the industry to … Continue reading praising Philhaven →

I once was lost…

my son among the alien4 and alien5 who have been here to clean up the mess from the 20th c. us, happy as we should have been, as follows: the name Ian is Scottish for John Alex Young in LA. 1992 happiness I may not have looked that way, but I felt that way. Isn … Continue reading I once was lost… →