extermination

I just figured out the word for what my father wants to do to me. He hates me. And has since the moment I was born. all this, point, everything that's going down, is because of his naive immaturity. He's still the same at 90. He needs to go away for a little while, just … Continue reading extermination →

destroyed freshman week at Harvard

she took me with her to see the movie "Love Story," compulsory for incoming Freshman. We went to a party and two young men came to our door looking for me and found her instead. They invited her to a party. She hit it off with one of them and they dated through college. Actually … Continue reading destroyed freshman week at Harvard →

pulling some things together.

An idle stroll through some recent movements captured in drawings. I stepped on a toad in the dark of evening and felt terrible about it. But i also felt afraid, which, I think, isn't normal. It was an accident. I said to myself I matter more to God than a toad don't I? Well HE … Continue reading pulling some things together. →

Occult healing

I am finally stepping free from that ICU table where I have lived all these many years. the MH System may not work very well on its own but where God steps in it comes together. As here. clamped catheter agony i dont know why this happened to me and maybe I never will but … Continue reading Occult healing →

Botch; cats have souls

not a botch protects me (am a botch) this is my cat Tanner flying at the porch window.

my mother

ashes to ashes dust to dust. if you did not die I do not know what to say. a luncheon at your favorite most expensive restaurant does not seem like the right send off and I am very glad I escaped going but look at all the trouble it's caused. Bernard used the word institutionalized … Continue reading my mother →

tasering

please note. It 8s my father wasn't much help to me with Ian when he was a child, but the real issue between me and him was the physical damage to me. I dont think he did any physical harm to ian whatsoever. But he bullied him. What we all are experiencing now was in … Continue reading tasering →

Weak today

Yesterday I could barely walk, today I feel sick all over and in pain that I cannot describe, t is safe to assume that my coffee was poisoned. It's been done before and the taste and the feelng are the ssme. Ive thrown out 2 good bags of coffer, I stop there. I'm out of … Continue reading Weak today →

un bon mot

Instead of, "the devil made me do it," we have "an alien made me do it!" And it's probably true!

Faith inventory at the present…

...is pretty 9ffbeat. I have struggled to find female rolemodels among the saints. I can only hope that the Lord approves my course--in the present--to imitate the course of Saint Mary Magdelan, who was a strong woman in the early church. I want to be a a strong woman for help and support generally for … Continue reading Faith inventory at the present… →