the abortion

I was always so troubled about the first pregnancy and abortion. why would anyone do that? He said "Let me come deep inside you, say you love me until the end of time!" well I was not ready for that but he had me pinned down. I said to myself let it be of free … Continue reading the abortion →

yes it really happened

Although I do not clearly remember (they may have knocked me out) I have the evidence of my subconscious and where my lights went out on the Pagoda Unit, the "tan code" where I was safe if I was touching the tan-colored handrails, just like it was a grade school game. Then I remember the … Continue reading yes it really happened →

imitating the course of Saint Mary Magdelan

l learned that she was a strong figure in the early church. I am to be a figure for the New Church that understands the presence and influence, and also possible danger and threat, of ALIENS.on Earth and coming towards us in the Heavens. I have had a horrendous experience that prepared me to be … Continue reading imitating the course of Saint Mary Magdelan →

HARD TIMES

I had the worst time in my life over the Charcoal + constipation incident. Something so frightening and so horrible happened to me. I wound up on a bed somewhere st LVH Cedar Crest behaving in a bizarre way and yelling and screaming. It was so raw. Im not going to try to explain except … Continue reading HARD TIMES →

Haven and Philhaven

Haven almost took my life but then for a week I loudly asked for an emergency discharge because I was getting so frantic from the "gaslighting" and just being on a short term unit for so long. They helped me by getting out of there to another facility for longer term patients. But I was … Continue reading Haven and Philhaven →

next step.

I grieve for my father and the life that we had. I grieve for the person, the man that he was. We sacrificed. Because he was doing things that were important. Hopkins trashed all that. my father offered to punch me and my mother picked up Ian and fled here to the cottage where I … Continue reading next step. →

Nervous

n I don't know why. something I did, don't know why. n the Lord won't take it off of me. don't know who I am anything could happen and I might not be ready to handle it. water over the bridge that oughtn't to have been. after a lifetime or half of one I screwed … Continue reading Nervous →

take courage

I was asked to not post here for a while and I was observing this; with good results. but I have to report here that I have come out in force about MY ALIEN ENCOUNTER. I reported it to the appropriate authorities. I saw that that was my responsibility especially as a Havard-Radclife CLGS.. things … Continue reading take courage →

A Saint

A felon who helped people at Haven Hospital in Reading, i have heard, is now a Saint. Her name was Lori. I called her a Saint and several others also. It was that deep there. I am not crying, I am mortally ashamed. Because she personally loved me back to life after the epiphany I … Continue reading A Saint →

last gasp re Hopkns, the MENTAL impact

or lack thereof. The first night I was there Lipsey made the point to me that "an idle mind is the Devil's workshop." and then just dropped it. I spent the next 28 years of my life figuring it out for myself. I had been having horrifying problems with Satan out in California and was … Continue reading last gasp re Hopkns, the MENTAL impact →