gaslighting

I just looked up the meaning of this expression the other day .and I finally understand what has going on. Its a specialized form of harassment and persecution. I just looked it up again to be sure of myself. it is of concern to the American Psychological Assocation and it is described as the manipulation … Continue reading gaslighting →

pain-taking; 2

Then, there's the physical pain, largely unreported. it started with Chelsea, last week. she gave me cortisone shots for my knees. I am largely out of torturous agony for the first time in 25 years. it affected my whole body. There's a story there about falling on my knees, over and over., Sle,ep has been … Continue reading pain-taking; 2 →

pain-taking

I won't do it any more. I fight back. I remember saying a long time ago that In the 80's it was about "farming out the pain." my father used to say it. my pain at that time was future-oriented. I had no idea where I was going or what I was doing. 8n 5he … Continue reading pain-taking →

Alien world

I'm a thinkling. that's my status in alien world. humble and small. recently I heard "walk in love" on the radio and I adored this expression. we humans on this earth during this pandemic are thinklings walking in love. we have been led to question some certain basic things about our society. surely the Lord … Continue reading Alien world →

Saints, angels, aliens and cats

the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit starting a new life, mourning Queen Elizabeth. trying to get used to the feeling of a King in power, it's so different. I have pictures of my English grandparents that I drew, I would like to share them. The last was my mother's mother. She died early … Continue reading Saints, angels, aliens and cats →

Abortion

I remember looking up at my brother Steven as we were standing on the beach in Cape May. At that time I didn't know what the feeling was. TERRIFIED; he was the father of my child. It's finally coming out. We were in the boat. They had me drive. I felt like everybody could see … Continue reading Abortion →

The Imitation of St Mary Magdelan

I came across this at the Haven Hospital, Reading. I left off with the imitation of Christ that I had done since a teenager. It had such disturbing elements. I thought I had to BE Jesus Christ. I didn't know exactly what form that would take. I started by trying to "take on" other peoples … Continue reading The Imitation of St Mary Magdelan →

breakaway

They are controlling me. Issues Been doing it for a long time. My father sells it. I just heard a little two-tone chime in my left ear like the recurrent pretty chime the tablet sends out regularly. Now I really know. I also know to honor my father (and mother). I also know to stand … Continue reading breakaway →

commitment

That word can mean such nice things. but it can also mean being placed involuntarily in a psychiatric setting. I have been running from this word for 42 years. I will follow the Lord.

About the sick sin of masturbation

in the Catholic church it is grave sin, in other words, mortal sin. My best guess is that that means you die of it; regarding Heaven and Hell I don't know. first of all, I am the WORST Christian. I came to it through t he back door, through terror of Satan, and don't have … Continue reading About the sick sin of masturbation →