April 11, 202 Right now I am on fire for the Lord. But that doesn’t mean much because I am a handicapped cripple and I cant even move my neck let alone offer anything to the world around me. Except to say STOP. I’m okay. It’s always been this way it’s just that I am … Continue reading Things are changing
Category: Christiantity
Arriving at Conclusions.
my father deserves a reprieve from anything he has said and done since Hopkins thst was questionable as he was disabled by the stroke and wasn't getting any help. Hopkins put my mother in chsrge and she didnt hsndle it appropriately.. it is hard to imagine how things could have happened differently as things went … Continue reading Arriving at Conclusions.
My next work
My next work is to act the Holocaust, Nagasaki, and Hiroshima. Just as I acted the Buried Collector, my father's famous invention. It will feel like acid. To realize how I was held and I how I was not. This is my dying work.
The Buried Collector
,,,was me!!! I was "between the sheets" when I was a little girl. I just hated it when my mother and father gave me a "sandwich hug" in bed late on Saturday and Sunday mornings when I was little. Later, I dreamed of a robot boy... Then, after "the Advocate," I enrolled in a drama … Continue reading The Buried Collector
Talking
Talked to an old friend last night. I haven't talked in years; ever. Dont know who to trust. My exhusband was one of the few NOT wordless people who was able to communicate with me. His French/German influenced Canadian with my Americanized British: he had learned as a youth in Europe how to be understood … Continue reading Talking
Fear
Everyone here lives in fear of my mother. We do a dance for her. Even the cats. She is mentally ill and dangerous. I am praying for Jesus to find her and lead her to seek treatment for her lifelong illness. Instead of seeking refuge in mine.
Out of Politics
Well i have noticed negative feedback for diving into the political fray and i am bowing out. Nobody is paying me to do this. I'm not obligated. It only ever brings grief and heartbreak and harm to my family. And I am dropping out of the race wars, too, which is where they really make … Continue reading Out of Politics
Diet crisis
My mother is creating an uproar over the current status here pursuant to my being up all night off my psych med Clozaril. Meawhile i am seeing an underlying crisis that is really evil. Over the last month or two i have suddenly gained 10 pounds over taking the diabetes medicine Metformin. I started trying … Continue reading Diet crisis
Bad trip, updated
Staff has put the kibosh on my spring flight/spiral out of lifelong Satans clutches. According to them this us "believing in Santa Claus" "Shes in love' sonebidy saud, and they asked the person with the radio to change the music and rhey put on sonething liver curdling. This is a white anglo Saxon person who … Continue reading Bad trip, updated
A Brand New Start
You who followed me at mentaljourneysblog.wordpress.com may somehow stumble across me here, you'll find me by the tags. I went silent on the old blog last week due to insecurities, and, finally, the prompting of my new therapist. I can't afford to risk my stay here, and I have used the name of the residential … Continue reading A Brand New Start
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