destroyed freshman week at Harvard

she took me with her to see the movie "Love Story," compulsory for incoming Freshman. We went to a party and two young men came to our door looking for me and found her instead. They invited her to a party. She hit it off with one of them and they dated through college. Actually … Continue reading destroyed freshman week at Harvard →

my mother

ashes to ashes dust to dust. if you did not die I do not know what to say. a luncheon at your favorite most expensive restaurant does not seem like the right send off and I am very glad I escaped going but look at all the trouble it's caused. Bernard used the word institutionalized … Continue reading my mother →

Trap

this is the denouement, the unraveling of this vast malpractice suit against John's Hopkins Hospital Affective Disoorders Unit. it started outside St Mary's Catholic Church in Kutztown, PA, home of Kutztown University; so I have been very self-assured in pursuing this cause because I knew that I was called. the main thing is that the … Continue reading Trap →

Weak today

Yesterday I could barely walk, today I feel sick all over and in pain that I cannot describe, t is safe to assume that my coffee was poisoned. It's been done before and the taste and the feelng are the ssme. Ive thrown out 2 good bags of coffer, I stop there. I'm out of … Continue reading Weak today →

Faith inventory at the present…

...is pretty 9ffbeat. I have struggled to find female rolemodels among the saints. I can only hope that the Lord approves my course--in the present--to imitate the course of Saint Mary Magdelan, who was a strong woman in the early church. I want to be a a strong woman for help and support generally for … Continue reading Faith inventory at the present… →

HARD TIMES

I had the worst time in my life over the Charcoal + constipation incident. Something so frightening and so horrible happened to me. I wound up on a bed somewhere st LVH Cedar Crest behaving in a bizarre way and yelling and screaming. It was so raw. Im not going to try to explain except … Continue reading HARD TIMES →

Haven and Philhaven

Haven almost took my life but then for a week I loudly asked for an emergency discharge because I was getting so frantic from the "gaslighting" and just being on a short term unit for so long. They helped me by getting out of there to another facility for longer term patients. But I was … Continue reading Haven and Philhaven →

Quiet

it's quiet today. Every step that you take is changed by the end of the reign of Queen Elizabeth It and the beginning of the reign of a king, the first male monarch in 80 years. it just goes to show that Queen Elizabeth had her ear to every heartbeat, at home and abroad. God … Continue reading Quiet →

Illness

INCEST. in my family as in many others, this has been an issue. I finally figured that it was my brother who got me pregnant when I was 13, not my father.

SICK

my sister Claire is a very sick person. it happened to me and i know what it's like. but she needs to stop spending her time faking evidence for my father's uses against me. And herself. and interfering in my son's life.